I dare you to catch razor butterflies

__x chOke

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Haish..i woke up in the morning all bleary -eyed expecting to be able to drea of myself sleeping the day away..thn i had to go fer band..i am not saying that band ish a pain but its very strenuous an dish starting to take a toll on me..I wuz glad i went band afterall coz everyone wuz marching and i cld juz sit down there and shake legs like one fat block of wood...Shake shake thn we went up to proceed to the music room..helped that pokang carrie her tuba and all..band wuz abit fun i guess..i laughed alort thx to sheriL and dat poser boi..fereva kutuking me and making me the butt of jokes..ahahahax..lame...evn Farahin gort dragged in and had no choice but to pinch Sheril but obviously that wusnt a suitable remedy fer such a problematic situation..ahahax..

So me..Dean..Maiz..Ziq..Naz and Sheril decided to go to JP by boarding the stewpid 181 bus..little didi we noe it wud be the virgin ride of the bus driver....Ziq and and SHeril ran across the street to wait fer the bus wile the rest juz stayed at the bus stop..the bus came and we boarded..we managed to get good seats lorhx..thn the bus turned to pick up Sheril and Ziq..thn Dean shouted.." Uncle dun nd to waste time picking them up juz drive can...."...evidently it was aubible and the bus driver heard it thn he stopped the bus and practicalli scolded me..Nazreen and Dean slid into their seats and i took all the lame rants he had to gif us...yawn man...wadeva..so farked up..like neber kena this before..its not like we are those mats and minahs...sheesh if i take the same bus driven by him i wld purposelli board the bus to spite him...

At JP maiz had to depart coz her mommy wuz bringing her sumwer..so we went to KFC..after ordering our food we joked and teased until i cld not eat and breathe..Dean wuz like splattering all over the food and had to shiled his cheese friez...ahahaxThn we took 99 all the wae to clementi and back...filled the time wif weird pictures and more kutuks...till we met these indian " gangsters "..they saed sumtim abt us and Naz..maybe i wuz such a coward coz i din sae anitin while sheril did...its like i wusnt in the situation to pick a fight wif those imbeciles....haish..sumtimes..i am so ashamed...

So i and Ziq and Dean decided to go on a fitness frenzy..we went to the gym and liked acted like super duper sumos...aaaaaaaahhhhh...ahahahax..moving to machine A to machine B at lightning speed..i still retain the fear to run on the threadmill...i am such a weakling....Tml we are duin it agn..we wanna act fitness fanatics..hahahax..yeahx rite...

caught a razor butterfly at - 12:44 AM |

___*a dReam

Saturday, January 29, 2005

Hey there..i noe i haf not been contributin to my daily rants and weird misconceptions abt my life and friendz..okie fer punishment u get an all expensed paid trip to spank my SEXY ass....* wiggle wiggle *....aniwae practicalli alort of tinks happened within such a short frame of one week..i finalli gort a new hp..its a nokia 7260..yeah baybeh...i haf finalli succeeded in improving myself..all dats left isf to becum thin...why tell my why muz god curse me wif the inability to rid my bodily systems wif fats and carbohydrates..boohoohoo...heard that u stewpid adipose tissues under my skin..time fer u to perculate and start decreasing in size so that i can reapply as the spokesperson fer Slim 11 or sum other alternative...

Yayness.. [ i learnt that werd frm maiz ] i gort accepted into JJC..it wuz practicalli instantaneous..met Jannah and it wuz like the good old daes...Haziq and my mum were wif me..it wuz so kecoh in the sch lorhx..ahahax..after we left the tcher...Mr Chua iked kolled me and told me to return back to the GO...i wuz so scared lorhx...thn he saed it wuz alreadi approved and i will be in SC01 taking bio and chem plus maths and gp and malay..waaaaahhhh..somore he asked me to join band...he saed he heard that Westwood concert band hash a good rep..reaLLi ahx??....waaaaaahh not bad siahx..we are famous..[ onli in Jurong..but still famous rite?? ]...so i gotta visit the stewpid SAJC to hand my form of transfer..so waste of time....i went back fer band and fer debates...band rox man..it wuz like good times...juz found out fer myself that Ms Laura ish such a biatch or a wannabe-biatch..plz lorhx..so scared to approach me and Haziq thn wanna act enquire abt our presence..soooo wadeva...juz coz ur the new DM tink i gif a damn..plz horhx open ur stewpid denim-wearin eyes and see that we all hate u..evn the tchers slack coz they wanna purposelli wanna gif u hell..u tink wad they slack coz they tink they inferior to u..plz horhx...go bang ur head agnst that useless vending machine that ish in the sch..it juz shows both of u are similar..both are empty and fail to supply....

okie..kool down jaryl..all those fiery comments mite gif u a heart attack..hmmmm heart attack..if onli they gort fat attack..i will * bang bang * all my lipids away..U noe we lost to Teck Whye Sec fer debates..i wuz like wtf..biga deal that stewpid second speaker so drama one..he tink wad..drama klass ahx..i more drama lorhx..sheesh he tinks tht he wuz so good..go to hell...juz coz u won..wadeva..gotta werk harder..ahahax..me and Haziq helping thm out..hopefulli they can win the next..if not we shall rely on the next batch of sec four's....Tml i shall go band...and see them suffer..ahahahax..and maybe act like exercise freak if possible..till nxt time....

caught a razor butterfly at - 2:20 AM |

__I didn'T dRown*

Saturday, January 22, 2005

whoosh...todae wuz the Sentosa meeting..kooL!!!!Wake up and 7:30 am lorhx..i wanna act erLy birdie mahx..so i went NTUC and buy chips and popcorn fer my frenz..see i so gd horhx..[ plz vomit here ]...*ahem ahem*..in the train..Jasmine sae i very suai...dunnoe whtr rite speLLing anot..supposed to mean handsome..me??...sure anot??...Pple see my face can kena mati siahx..u want handsum..see my bez frenz...paragon of good-looking males...me?....Aiyah...dun care handsome anot...jzu be me good enuff..ahahax..but being handsome wld be an added bonus...ahahaax...

Thn meet everyone..at ferst not so enthu lorhx...like so bo pian..ahahax..after warming up..like playing volleyball until so mani pple on the beach kena assasinated...and i pity the trees siahx..all kena hit by me..I wanna act i gort i beri good serve technique lahx..wadveva Jaryl....ahahahax..beri fun lehx...until my thumb swollen..Jia xin hen cute lehx..she hit like dunnoe sum gentle butterfly..*flutter flutter*..ahahax..thn pLay in water abit....onli until my feet coz i sick mahx..aftr mati agn...Wen evryone went to bathe..Esther approached me...and we toked...so long siahx neber tok..haiz...supposedly its all over..dunnoe if she still angry anot..ahahax..i becum so poopular...everyone wuz like.."Y u drop out of SAJC?"..ahahax...i myself confused too...thn gort my iPod mini..everyone wuz debating wich btr..Zen or appLe..aiyoh..sum pple realli changed..others remained juz as before..and i like it dat wae...

We ate at JP KFC..fun lahx..beri cartoon siahx me and Pat..in the arcade..play the Marvel vs Capcom2..she lose to me...muahahahax..thn she wuz like "Not bad ahx..."....all the way...farni siahx..den we play the drum game..beri fun lehx..i recommend..i lose siahx..abit lahx..but gif her face ahahahax...thx Pat fer britening up my day!!..realli meant alort to me..u beri farni lehx..keep it up!!...Thn follow her go sPortzlink..see Billabong stuff..all so ex siahx..ahahahax..but nice...damn nice siahx..hope Pat buys the vintage bag..den she can be kool..thn i can act kool as a fren...aahahahax...

i am realli happie todae..though not everyone wuz present and the enthu-ness diminished..i realli mish everyone...sumhow i feel dat i haf redeemed a part of myself..maybe it wusnt dat bad...i din drown afterall....i din drown in my sorrows...instead..i floated..not due to the mani air spaces found in pockets of adipose tissues under my epidermis...[ see my bio hen hou]...ahahax..but coz i felt that my spirits were lifted..sumhow..i am not scared of the future animore...coz i gort u guys...

Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all-Hikari
-by Utada Hikaru

caught a razor butterfly at - 11:30 PM |

__It's Kinda Sad Really...

Splinter In My Heart
by As Told By Ginger

It's kind of sad really
Guess I'm the sort who'll linger
When the credits roll
I still can't leave a picture
The picture I hold
In my heart

It makes me mad really
Wish I could blame a twister
Or a hurricane,
Or my pesky sister
Wish I could blame away this feeling
In my heart

There's reasons left to fight
There's you to kiss good night
Hold on…
Hold on tight

It makes me mad really
Wish I could blame a twister
Or a hurricane,
Or my pesky sister
Wish I could blame away this feeling
In my heart

Haiz...i am reaLLi lucky to haf great Frenz..like YF..Jannah..Naz..Sheril..Haziq..and Dea..Maiz..haiz..i feel like i somehow haf let them down..somehow..tml ish the Sentosa meeting..it either makes or breaks me...Will i ferget and forgif..or will i be Forgotten and forgiven??...Sometimes i wish i cLd end this all...end all my pain..its all emotional..i juz dun get it...y??y??...wad haf i done..TO tht gerL hu hurt me so much..u dunnoe me at all...after all these years...i tot u knew..u neber trusted me..u were jealous of sumwan elz..sumwan hu was better thn both u and me..u knew tht everyone changes..yet u refused to let me evolve and metamorphasize..u hung on to me too much..u were my constrain..u were my barrier...

Its kinda sad realli...i haf been waiting fer happiness..tot i had experienced it..till it wuz robbed frm my hands...it wuz all a lie..all a dream..everything about me has been faded.......my fight ish ending...hold on tight to me...before i juz slip away..juz like my dreams....will u be by me???......maybe....

caught a razor butterfly at - 1:22 AM |

__Fcuk

Friday, January 21, 2005

Haiz..honestly nutin seems to be brite in my future lately..I went to the so called 'interview' at Grand Hyatt ytd...well..it seemed okay lahx..somehow i feel like i am making a huge mistake..oh my...i honestly wish i had not made some rash decisions in the past...I am truly stewpid...

Todae a letter came in the mail...It wuz a letter frm SAJC..they informed my parents about my absence and threatened to suspend me...suspension fer me?.....ME???.....What the FARKING HELL!!!!!...wad haf i becum..my mom scolded me lorhx..she saed i haf not being showing interest in my studies and all dat...wad?...thn she cooled down and saed it wuz alrite coz she wuz the one hu allowed me to wifdraw frm sch in the 1st place...haiz...i see my future slip thru my hands..maybe i wun go on....my friend wanted to do sumtim stewpid..maybe i shld too...but this time...i wld do it well..maybe i wun wake up at all...maybe i wld juz fall...and neber open my eyes agn to be shun by this werld...maybe...juz maybe....

caught a razor butterfly at - 1:09 AM |

___m0menT's Reprieve

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Hmmm..i stiLl cant find a go0d buy fEr a stewpid hp...aniwae i went back to Westwood ytd..it wuz totaLLi FUN!!!..Actualli Haziq..Dean and myseLf were kinda late i guess..so we took a taxi to skooL..in the end rush here and there..thn pLay..hahahax..it wuz okie..i mean the performance had its flaws lahx..and being human i made several mistakes too...but hu will noe one...after the 1st performance..met so many familiar faces...graduands frm my year..i teLL u it wuz realli an eye-opener..everyone changed one way or another...They all seemed happie in JC..maybe i am a wet bLanket..maybe i am not meant to be in a JC..maybe i am juz a stewpid jerk hu dusnt reaLise how fortunate i am...but it cant be..evryone sae i am lucky to be in SAJC..but i beg to differ..i am rarely happie there..i find myself skipping sko0l ever so often..sumtim wich is not of my character..have i gone thru a period of rebellion..or am i experiencing sum disturbances in my life..its all cloudy..Benjamin and gang seem so enthusiastic abt JJC..they are truli hafing a time of their life..wish i were there to experience it too..it wld neber hurt....

WeLL...after everything..tchers like Ms Tan and Mrs Vergis were commenting on how different i look...they saed i looked good and very matured...do i?...its onLi been a couple of months..haf i changed tt drastically?....Maybe i am not the same Jaryl u noe....maybe....Haiz..so the dae went on and Haziq told me tt he confronted Yanti and found out tt Raimi and her stead liao..well i am definitely not jealous or anitin but i feel a mixture of anger and sadness that Raimi did not even inform any of the 5 of us..not even me..i noe that i haf not been a good godbro or even a fren...i noe we haf benn drifting apart..but it dusnt hurt to tell Haziq..Dean..Naz or Sheril rite....wad difference duz it makes?....Somore Esther came back to skool too..she had the cheek to sae 'Hi' to Dean but totalli ignored me...so much fer being frenz in the past..history repeats itself...i am a fool...a misunderstood fool..nice guys alwaes finiz last..or maybe i am too slow to win the race of life...well i am fat u noe..so i am naturalli a person not inclined towards the sporting arena...

I reaLLi feLt hapi wen i spent my time in Westwood wif my true companions and oso wif my cuzzins..onli wif them do i feel liberated..

I am so sick of lying..i tink the truth would be known to all in a few moments in my life..pple will find out that i am such a coward and liar..i am not the same animore...maybe its time to withdraw..............

caught a razor butterfly at - 10:34 PM |

___Touche

Monday, January 10, 2005

On Saturdae...myseLf and Haziq and Dean seT ouT on the jouRney to find a perfect compuTer fer Haziq..Like ani other outing..i wuz late..its starting to become a cliche oreadi and i am getting sick of it but God forbids me to ever wake up in time and be punctual....I met Haziq and we were all around Orchard searching fer 'sumtim'..we went to Peninsula Plaza ans Shopping Center fer that 'sumtim'...finalli we found the shop selling 'sumtim' and went looking around..The shop wuz damn kooL i teLL ya...soooo mystique and cosy like wif an egde of funkiness sprinkled liberally..We met Dean there and Haziq bought this 'sumtim' to try out..hope it werks...

Then we set foot to Funan..it seemed the most likely spot to fetch a good price on electronics...we were walking here and there and even took sum time to sing it the more than cool toilet...well..they were singing and styling their hair while i wuz brandishing this look of lameness that seems to never leave my face....yeah the sad reality of being me...aniwae we were at the last floor wen Haziq realised that his Handphone wuz missing in action.....he wuz totalli scared that sumone mite misuse it or sumtim...thn he went "WHAT THE FARK!!" in front of two elderly Ang mohs...i tink that wuz their first encounter wif a disturbed teenager...haha..so began our search fer it..after countless calls and weird breathing noises cumming from the fone..sumone picked it up and told us to go to the place wer we had our meal to retrieve the lost item..thank gawd..amazingly this all happened wen Haziq exclaimed that if he ever found his phone again he would sell it and donate the money to charity...coincidence??

It wuz after the whole thing that i realised how free i am wif my true frenz..i am neber like this in JC..in sch i am unusualli quite and not Jaryl-like...haish..sad huh??....i went to receive my Edusave Scholarship wif my mum and sis together wif the two jester buddies of mine and finished the whole dae wif a family-like dinner...if onli life would be like that..where i would litter my troubles wif bountiless amounts of laughter...neber turning back to reminise about the bad times and the hurt i haf had from my so-called frenz....

caught a razor butterfly at - 1:23 AM |

____my LegaCy

Saturday, January 08, 2005

..sowie guys tt i haF noT been upDating my bLog..sum cRazee pRob wif my inTernet connection...

Its weird being in a JC..Esp SAJC..i feeL so different...so scared...its new i guess..needs getting used too..being alone..no frenz..not mani frenly faces..pple frm my pri sch all stare at me in disbelieve i guess..neber expecting me to get so far..afterall..i was stewpid compared to them...haiz....

The 1st dae wuz blunder..wuz late by 1 hr and 10 mins...fantastic rite?..Dun ask y..thn the emcee wuz announcing to the whole skooL to turn back and laugh at me coz i wuz a latecomer..so PAISEHX!!!!....2nd dae wuz kinda btr..kinda onli..thn i had food poisoning or sumtim..fever and diarrohoea..haiz..life sux man...went to sch todae for band...Amazinglt todae wuz the first dae this yr i laughed so hard..sadly its wuz becoz of my frenz and bandmates in skooL..SAJC cnt provide me the enjoyment..Mdm KaLiani's daughter managed to get into NJC and ish taking the combi i wanted..---- Maths..Chem..Bio and Lit....haiz..y muz my life suck so bad..she told me not to worrie coz after my o LeveL resuLts i can make it to NJC..weLL i hope so..Mr kOh wuz asking me so mani qnz..like y i onli saed SAJC wuz okay and not gReat..aiyah..juz SHUT UP okie???....puh leese..this pesky pple dun care abt me...they think its all abt name and glory..they dunnoe wad i am going thru...fooLs....

Aniwae Mai told me Mr Lee taked abt me or sumtim..hahax..greta i guess...i mish his lessons and MS Lee's..their Lessons were my saLvation..i used to look forward to them wen i wuz still in WWSS..weLL heard WWSS sux now coz of the new authority..i guess wen Ms Kok left..she took WWSS along..now the building standing upon its foundation is nothing but a memory of the daes long gone..the daes we spent as a skool...its juz a shell where the stewpid new tchers will dwell in gloom wif the new sec 1's....u see..the new sec 1's noe nutin so its easy to influence them now....i hafta help out in the aLumni..i will make it happen..to make WWSS the way it wuz..well...maybe......

caught a razor butterfly at - 2:28 AM |