I dare you to catch razor butterflies

__doh re mi

Thursday, March 31, 2005

OMG!!..this few daes haf been mass lectures and more mass lectures..hahax..after all the weird antics during the finale nite..it was fun but we had to eventualli start lessons mahx...I tell u..i haf been dozing off in project work lectures..and i am so guilty of it..hahax..Though ytd was the cca fair i felt that it was a bit rushed n disorganised.Cca fair in westwood ish like so diff frm that in PJC..in wwss we make the whole event sumtim grand for the juniors..i like that feeling..aniwae dear Tanya wrote my name for choir..haha..and the TLS peeps wanted me to join lorhx..but i declined..i signed up for band n debates ytd too...

Todae i was leaning towards conciousness ever so dearly...i went for my choir auditions wif fear of making a mockery out of myself.They asked me to sing a song..instead due to me pooor sense of singing i had to hum a song...so i hummed to the tune of "at the begining"..thn i tried this part from the song "sunset" the SYF set piece...n thn i tested my range...apparently my range ish from A to G...not bad huh??...thn they asked me to try sum falsetto thing..omg..everyone there were like ex choir members..so paiseh..at the end i made it thru!!...woohoo...apparently the guy in charge of the auditions saed i had good tempo n a good tenor sound..wow..me a tenor..hahax..but i told them the truth abt me joining band and all..i feel a bit lost agn..hahahax..choir sounds kool n band roz i guess..well...

Then me n Magdelene went for the debates audition..my topic was related to my interest of music.."DOes music have any other values in society other thn entertainment"...very impromptu..hahaha..well i tink we two stand a good chance.haiz..i realli hope i can join band n debates..its so holistic..hahax..i gort pretty few friends in band oreadi or joining..like zoey..huixian..zhijun i tink..andrew..yurong i haf no idea..n of course my senior DEAN!!..omg..cip ish on the sat..we are so gonna haf fun as a klass agn..tmr ish my awards dae..wish me luck!!

A phase..I am starting to accept it..if only me jealousy ish able to abandon my state of life..i tink i ask for too much

caught a razor butterfly at - 9:50 PM |

__finale moments

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Weeeeeeee..its the finale nite...but its sad coz we haf to say bubye to the clans and all that..Its kinda sad that somehow pple can actualli pon klass and end up dunnoe wer..how lame coz its gonna affect them eventualli..05S04 has bonded wif each other..but wif sum "extras around"??..how lehz??..aniwae we had the Amazing Race..hahax..it was sooo kool...We were running all over the place while the others were slacking here n there..muhahahax..it juz shows that we are very enthusiastic lehz..hahahax.. We gort top ten position and ish oreadi an incredible feat..We managed to learn everything as in songs n dances after our CT time...hahax..it was damn fun..i cant believe i enjoyed myself so much..poor Prathiban..had to dress up as a gladiator don in cardboard armour depicting love n peace..contradictory rite??

The Finale thing was incredible..i was hopping here n there wif my klassmates n shouting cheers n 'bombing' each other..hahax..the Mass Dance n Fun Dance was totalli fetch..hahax..i was drenched in perspiration from top to toe..We had our dinner get together after that..we apparently seem to appear as the most enthu class to keep such a spirit that diffuses all amongst us...thts why we decided to sppot the name Enthu square..hahax..

I actualli was feeling doubtful abt my subj combi..the chem bio one..i actualli wanted to transfer to the chem n lit combi but was persuaded by my loved ones not to change combi..coz i was tinking about my career choice..as either a vet or zoologist..yeah..i believe i nbr made the wrong choice coz my klass rox..So4 ROX!!..hahax..Someone who questioned my presence ytd seemed to be humble enuff to say hi to me but i juz smiled..well..maybe i hafe becum haughty or wad..but i stand strong in my roots....

Its time for the chapter next...spartans u make me feel real good...my regrets are drowned by our special moments..

caught a razor butterfly at - 10:43 PM |

__weT

Monday, March 28, 2005

Hey ho!!..i gort into my 2nd choice combi..boohoo..so i am reading Maths...Chem and Bio onli..no econz or any other fourth subj..hahax..but wad the heck..i am not bothered as long as i try my best now...it will pay off eventualli..Aniwae thx to Dean..hahax..no offense..i was late for school...scary..ran all the way from the bus stop to sch..i was like ???...hahahax...my klass ish a bunch of fun-loving people n i tink we are somewhat comfy wif one another...yeahx..the most enthu ish syaharna..sumtimes she reminds me of Jannah..well.. gosh i cant sae i dun mish the JJC peeps..but i hafta let go to the past man!!..yeahx..

We played wet games until i was wet to the core..i got bombed by a colored-water solution...n poured by syaharna oso..hahax...PJC so rox my stinking sockz...hahahax..i came up wif the cheer for my klass...yeahx i juz penned it in 2 mins...

Watch out for our stomping might
Alwaes steady day and nite
We are mighty So4...Fight (x 11) 04!!

So far school ish okie man...i realli hope it will be fun tomorrow during Finale Nite..yeahx..aniwae i was a bit pissed that sum pple find it kinda of a mockery for me to take part part in a performing arts grp...and sum person saes that its like "wrong" for me to be in pjc...wad the hell...i soooo don't care abt them...lets juz hope for the best...

I saw her standing there..but i noe it will neber be..lets juz say its a crush...

caught a razor butterfly at - 10:06 PM |

__holy hippoe

Saturday, March 26, 2005

Good Fridae!!..ALLELUIA..a holidae at the end of a hectic week at school.Aniwae i woke up late todae and found it rather refeshing.I went to church wif my family and i dare say its a big step for me personalli.Now..before u gather a mob bearing pitch forks ready to stab me to death..i have to say that i have not been attending church for a long time for personal reasonz..i am juz glad that i haf finally rekindled my faith.TO my utter disgust..my parents were able to serve got and yet embarrass their two youngest children..a.k.a myself and my sister by accepting the front seats or rather pews in the church.I could see the priest looking at me in intervals..hmm..maybe it was my unkempt n unruly hair or maybe the fact that he thought i was an obese form of the antichrist ready to bring about a monarchy of fat n cellulite filled hippoes bent on rising the sea levels to create a hippopotami haven...Boy have i gone off tangent..Aniwae my sis n i were able to witness a kind of divine spectacle thanks to being seated at the front.The priest was on the brink of falling down as he missed his step durinf the veneration of the cross...I was like...wad??...woah..thank god..[ no pun intended ] nothing happened...My sister was laughing about it the whole day..she ish such a little sinner..hahax

I was looking at the SAJC webby and i could not help but feeling a little regret of running away from that school.I belong somewhere elz now..a better place hopefulli..but i bet pple are going to look at the sch's rep to judge a student..so kudos to the one frm SAJC for pple are gonna look up to you and most probably tink pf the onli PJC student frm my sec sch..alias of Jaryl as nutin more thn mere shit..well tchers didnt want me to go there...saed it wasnt good enuff..well look at PJC now..it evn surpassed JJC..sheesh..i hope to enjoy the finale nite..its gonna be a bang..n i wanna be part of it...

Forego the moments in the past..Foresee my hopes in the future n fortell my success..its all in me i guess

caught a razor butterfly at - 2:02 AM |

__butt cramps

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Well honestly i haf become sick of all the subject talks JC's put their students through.Its equivalent to 4 hours of butt aching n leg cramping ordeals.I rather go thru boot camp thn hear all those boring yakkity yaks frm the teachers.I do noe that the talks are bursting wif information but i cant help it but yawn thru.Ahahahax..I was realli in full gear during Mr Dennis Yeos's speech.Somehow i felt i was able to connect emotionally wif him..i felt he was frm the same age grp as all of us.The best thing about him ish his integrity,he told us he took his A levels thrice and dared any one of us to beat his record..hahax..wad a joker...its a waste that he ish teaching the gothic tradition to the Lit students..and i happen to take strictly sci due to my future career path..haiz...The discipline talk was so lame..that tcher..all i heard was blah blah blah..hahaax..well all i noe ish that its gona be diff to pon lessons..hmmmm..hahahax..nopes i happen to be the epitome of righteousness..cannot fall to the dark side...

Finalli after the admin stuff it was the begining of the orientation..GREEK MONUKDIKTUS or sumtim along those lines..ahahahax..heard that we are in the ELis clan..so fun...We learnt the Fun Dance n Mass Dance but onl a small portion to keep our hunger fer learning it alive..weird hypothesis man.Thn we went for luchies the ruggers..a.k.a rugby guys were shouting my name..wonder how they found out abt me...hmmmm..aniwae i told them i interestd in the band..thn they sae they require fat n big guys to represent them..wow wad a nice catch phrase..i tink i will forego this 'opportunity'...tinking of debates too..furthering my interest n honing my skills...The games were fun..running here n there..finalli i got to know my OG19 well but sad enuff todaes the last dae wif them..Frm next mondae i will be wif my klass n wet games will be the turning point wif those guys as we bond n becum a kloza knit family...i pray hard i get my ferst choice combi..Maths..Econz..Chem and bio...pray fer me...

We are either blessed wif a curse or cursed wif a blessing being in the dragon year -- Mr Yeo

caught a razor butterfly at - 10:17 PM |

__ oh "wee"..not

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Well hooray..so much for the first day of school.Honestly i felt btr not going sch at all..Tt's totally lame.In the morning i met up wif my best friend and senior Dean!!..thn we took bus..train and another bus but still managed to reach school on time.Evryone was strolling like kinda oldies..Miss Kok would blow her top man.Aniwae i met my JJC friend Din in sch..Uma my ex-classmate is also there.Apparently i landed into OG19..its abit sad lahx coz in my OG everyone were in pairs as they were frm the same schs...and me..juz so extra..It was soooo boring todae...Juz subj talks and other talks..the weird thing ish tht they kinda oredered us to submit our subj combi todae..Mondae i will noe my lesson timetable and my class...

I tried to appeal but was told off by this farking tcher that i had no hope to appeal coz i didnt meet the requirments..Excuse Bitch but i belif pple appeal coz they cant meet the foundational requirements in the first place rite?...In the end the SH for chem saed he would allow me to gif it a try..Oh god ..i pray i get into the first choice.. Maths C..Chem..bio and Econz..if not w/o econs its okie...haiz..will happiness ever feel my heart in JC..i wished i did btr in the O's..regrets..onli regrets...

My head tells me a made a mistake coming here..my heart wants me to stay....confused!!?

caught a razor butterfly at - 10:06 PM |

__new*

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

It was all a dream..nothing realli shattered..nothing realli disappeared in my life..It was all within my reach..I just failed to let go.Now i know tht it was all kinda my own fault..i was clinging on to the memories too tightly...i was to stubborn to let my past go..But now i have realised that in order to embrace the present n future i gotta look back at the past as only a glimpse in my life.I would definitely not forget the moments i spent in my secondary school.The competitions...the races..the events..all will be etched in my heart.My friends..my teachers..the atmosphere..i may rekindle it whenever i visit the sch..but other than that..i belong to my JC..

I soo gotta work hard..i will fight for four subjects..I am not as smart as my peers before but i believe i will work harder.My o level results disappointed me enuff..I feel that i hafe to redeem myself..I realli hope to be able to read Lit..Chem..Bio n Maths in Jc..not forgetting the band and debates..and of course i will aim to become the student councillor.I noe its alort of things..but i will try my best to accomplish it..afterall..Its a new beginning..

Its gonna be a new day tomorrow..new experiences..new moments..new and old friens..new subjects..and a whole new me..in my new dream school.. Pioneer Junior College..

caught a razor butterfly at - 5:33 PM |

__my butt

Monday, March 21, 2005

Well..well..well..todae was the stewpid awards dae rehearsal i was waiting for.I reacehed school quite early n requested Sheril to meet me at the bus stop.She was shouting from the 4th floor...and everyone was looking..but i obviously didnt care..Its nice to be embarassed once in a while..especially in my ex-school.Thn when sheril and i were walking..Won passed by and insinuated that we were a couple..hahax..u sure?..It seems pretty unlikely..Won..ohh..Won..u wan sheril rite??..hahahax...kidding onli..Aniwae after i took the unneccesary "Visitor's Pass"..we headed to the band room.On the way up..we met Atikah n Juwana...hahax..Den we acted like bf and gf..pesky rite?..Thn they saed i changed alort and wad not..Juwana was saeing.." Bye Handsome" in those draggy sexy tone..and i replied in the same tone..hahax..i am such a bitch!!

The actual rehearsal was such a drag.The tchers were yakking n yakking as if we are alienated from such events..pitiful..aniwae,,Miss ooi was strutting here and there n called the graduands down to the quadrangle to haf her own practice..so we went smoothly until it was my turn..i acted...so i greeted her as i tried to picture her as the GOH and practice receiving the prize..thn i fouled up at the bowing part..i accidently bowed in front of her and showed her my butt...Everyone was laughng...hahahax..i liked it actually..i mean the aymosphere..at ferst it was so solemn until my butt did the talking and laughter was reverberated everywer..yeahx..Thn we headed home...had lotsa beneficial conversation..frm halimahtus..Sangeetha...Isabella..n the usual peeps..maybe its not bad afterall...i tink i am feeling btr....

As i sat in the bus..i looked upon the stretch of road n reminised the past.Of happiness n gloom..i tink i am getting stronger..its within me.....

caught a razor butterfly at - 10:54 PM |

__ ...

Saturday, March 19, 2005

Have you felt that everything that happened was a dream.Maybe its just me..maybe its due to the insufficient amount of rest i et per day due to my sudden interest in being an insomiac..maybe just maybe.As we all tend to our own needs n whims...we have yet to realise our actions affect the people around us.Words...whether said or written tend to alter or modify a way a person thinks and a way a person is presented.As i lay on my bed in the morning..i cant help to erase the thoughts of the yesteryears.Instead of leaving me..they loom n lull me into a deep slumber.Maybe its all my fault..I cant seem to let go of the past..I am afraid to look at the future and i suffer the consequences of my actions in the present.It was all a mistake..all a fallacy...was i a fool to run away from my problems..Eversince the illustrious O's..everyone was celebrating..but for me..i sat n cried about my hopes..as i see them slipping away.Its too late to cry over spilled milk..yet i cling unto the past so desperately..combing the thoughts for an answer.Yesh i am open to say this..i think i fouled up my O's..i think i could have done better..yet everyone said i did well n teachers shook my hands but only those dear to me can see through my facade..its not strong enough to fool my loved ones..

Everything seems to happen for a reason..My tuba fell to its death today...It was dented..all my years tendind to it..in a total of four and a half years my tuba has finally met its defeat against the cold hard concrete floor...evidently a reflection of my irresponsibility.As i hear the bitter crash of the metal mixed with the frantic screams i am nothing but in a state of stupor.Maybe i am leavng too many things behind.I have not made many friends in JC but to those i call my friends there..i will always remember those moments..I can only look into the past..to find he answers i yearn for..the solution to correct my present and to see the friuts of labour in the future.I am worried..yes of course..behind my oblivious and sometimes dumb exterior lies a person very few know.Somehow i feel scared..My posting results will come soon..a dreadful though builds up in me..or maybe it has always been there..waiting for the roght moment to spawn..Will i start anew in PJC or will i stay in denial as my peers mock at my foolishness.People far cleverer than me are being cautious by taking the bare minimum and there goes a plump kid called Jaryl acting like a big shot...aiming for the moon when people know he is nothing more than the clouds compared to them.People have told me to follow my dreams..but i ask myself..how far will they lead me??..delusional??ambitious??..i myself have no idea..all i can do is wait...and seclude myself in my fantasy world..as i reminise the fun moments with teachers...schoolmates..friends..and of course..myself..i dread the answer..but i have no choice but to accept fate..or should i defy it??...

caught a razor butterfly at - 11:45 PM |

__for u..

White houses

Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This little bunk alone with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day

Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
Beer through the nose on an inside joke
I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
The summer's all in bloom
The summer is ending soon

It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses

Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's black leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last

It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses

My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake

Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lie, put my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us
In white houses

And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses
In white houses
In white houses

The above isha song that i feel reflects wad i feel about a certain bit of news my "charmed one" told me.I highlighted the parts i felt were meaningful in our context in orange n in italics.Hmm..wad can i sae..Sheril..i noe that u arent leaving this year or anitin but the very idea of u leaving saddens me alort.I start to reminise the days i met u wen u were onli a sec one student..Ur ferst words to me were " The rooms stinks siah..isit from your armpits??"..Frm thn on i knew u were one heck of a farni gerl..I am sowie fer those times i listened to those stewpid rumors..n those times i hurt ur feelings...I guess i was blibd n didint realise how much u meant to me.U were a true buddy to me..Wen i wanted to party..u were there..readily willing to accompany me..Wen i fought wif my other frenz...u encouraged me to be strong..Wen pple called me a hypocrite and dissed me..U helped me out..Most of all..u were alwaes there to pick me up..u n naz..mean alort to me...I will remember the times we spent going out...The times u kuotked me and the rest of our gang..I will remember the late nite chats wif ya..the conferences we had..and the many fun moments we had during concerts n band practices..U were one of the best juniors i had in my tuba section..U neber failed to crack me up..n believed in me..evnthough it would result in you being pinched by Farahin..U were urself..juzz plain old Sheril whom everyone fell in love with.Study hard my freind..and prove others wrong..gonna mish u wen u leave..ut do not ferget..we gotta cherish n embrace the moments as we remain as five...Be strong..n remember..if u noe sumwan treats u badly..maybe its time to gif them a taste of their own medicine..Love ya loads..looking forard to the fond memories wif you..memories wich will last foreva...

A dedication....frm your fren..badak!!... =]

caught a razor butterfly at - 12:17 AM |

__follicle fantasy

Friday, March 18, 2005

I decided to cut my hair today.I noe it might sound so important but believe me y hair has evolved over the years from the humble nerd boy from the i-have-messy-hair-yet-i-am-so-lame kinda hairdo.This ish wad a tcher saed several daes ago:

Miss Tan W.K : Haziq, noawadaes u are very toned down.Very good! Jaryl ur hair now very messy huh?
Me: Yeahx...[ in a dragging tone ]
Miss Tan: yeahx somore...

So paiseh..hahahax..aniwae i went back to my roots todae..nomore fanciful and posh hairdressers.Nopes.I am gonna stick wif the salon near my home.Hair Info.yeahx.I went there and there was this new guy clad in a mauve shirt trimming the hair of customers.I gulped in fear that he might be an act-cool homosexual trying to reign the world of hairstyle.So finally it was turn for the cut.I sat there stating the style i want.Hmm..it would be easier in dialogue form i think.... :

Me:Erm..i think i would like my back to be layered n my top to be spiky
The Guy:Your hair..very curly..i cut..gif u the latest fashion..
Me:Okay..do wadeva u want as long it looks good on me.thx
Him:Are u a student?
Me:Yes
Him:Poly?
Me:No..JC
Him:Okie..i gif a very good fashion ya?
Me:..erm..ya
Him:U wad sch??
Me:Jurong Junior College
Him:Jurong East??
Me:ya..jurong east
Him:Secondary school?
Me:Westwood
Him:West coast??
Me:Ermm..ya
Him:SO how u study?
Me:I study like normal studying lahx..as long can enter university its okie
Him:Waaaahh..u ah..create very good idea..
Me: [ blank look]

Yup..interesting converstaion wif him..Well they were hafin an offer..Cut n wash fe $10..so cheap..thn he styled n thought me the method to style my hair :

Him:This is wax ok [ applies wax to his hand] thn u add water.Small small can oreadi.
Me:ermmm...ummm..mmm..hmmm...
Him:Thn u push here n there n make it fuzzy n spiky
Me:ooooohhhhhh....
Him:Okay..$1o
Me:Thanks uncle
Him:I not Uncle..call me brother..
Me:Brother??..[ sotong liao look ]

Hahax..creepy..who would noe getting a haircut wld lead to such melodramatic events in the humble salon.omg!!..Tink i would still patronise the salon..for the fun of it lahx!!

caught a razor butterfly at - 1:27 AM |

__TurbuLence

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

It has been a whirlwind of events..i am so happie.. >___< !!..Yesterdae my aunty n cuzzinz came over..my aunty juz recovered frm sum stomach probz n my cuzzins came over to cause havoc wif me..muahahhax..Nicky brought his xbox n we played WWE n sum racing game..i creamed him in the racing game but he kicked my ass in WWE..hahahx..It was so fun..Haziq came over fer lunch too..hahax..thn we went to my room n made lotsa noise..Thn I n Ziq went to westwood fer band..onli a few minutes..hahax..lame rite?..thn i toked wif Mdm Kaliane..Her daughter gort 11 pts..good siahx..but she appealing to NJC..hope she gets in..i toked to Mdm Kaliane about my ambition n all dat..n she realli encouraged me to go all out fer it..hahahax..at least sum other pple believe in me...She ish so like my mum...tts kool!!...I finalli watched Drumline ytd at nite wif Stephy..hahax..it was so fun..my cuzzins r cuming back on fridae..muahahax...time to be evil agn!!

Todae on the other hand was a day of perverted nonsenz and werking out..hmmm..We went to Sheril's house to watch Euro Trip..its so farni n lame at the same time..i was laughing like mad..hahahx..fun siahx..i kept on hugging to Sherils big cushions on the couch..thn we went to eat at McD wif her sis..aT the gym everyone was like looking at me n Haziq..esp all the Indian step cool pple..farking irritating lorhx..they stare until like wad man..the eyes were literalli on the brink of popping outta their stewpid little sockets..stewpid pple..its becoz of this pple sumtimes we feel uncomfortable to even step into the gym..all i am glad ish that i finalli conquered my fear of the treadmill..hahax..i can finalli run w/o holding on to the bars..hahax..yeahx..all thx to those freaky peeps i hang out wif..muahahahax.no lah they are kool..thn we went rounding on board 99..it wus fun man..we gotta do this often..takes the dull lifestyle away..and not fergetting the cellulites!!

caught a razor butterfly at - 10:16 PM |

__tired-ouT

Monday, March 14, 2005

hooooooo..I am soo tired these daes...the reason ish that i haf alwaes been sleeping around 5-6 am...mad rite?...i will be awake either on the computer or reading books n comics to pass the time before i get pooped out...Hmmm...finalli went out wif Dean n Haziq ytd..Hahax..ferts we went to Dean's house to touch up on ur hair..lame rite?...ahahahax..i am sooo gonna cut my hair..its too long n bushy..hahax..i wanna a short n spiky look..so that i can emulate an obese porcupine..aniwaes..after that we went to the library tp borrow more comics fer myself thn we went to Tiong Bahru Plaza...apparently Dean wanted to search fer sumtim to redeem at the World of SPorts outlet there..but nutin realli was nice or up to his taste down there..so we went to eat..hehex..okie lahx..the food was acceptable n the tar tar sauce as the side condiment was a bit..hmmm..overly sour..might haf gone bad..ahahahx...

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh...my aunty and my cuzzins are cumin over tmr n i haf yet to clean up my room...currently my room standards surpass the interior decor of a pig's sty..omg...i gotta go clean now..muahahahahx..or juz shove sum dirty laundry into the cupboard or sumtim..later dudes n dudettes~

caught a razor butterfly at - 7:04 PM |

__cHase

Friday, March 11, 2005

I accidentalli came across the tv show "chase" juz now.Hmmm..the stiry line could be a bit unrelistic.Its about this pair of individuals hu happen to stumble upon each other during a business or rather advertising business venture, but the catch ish the gerl can't realli remember the guy as the very nerd [ in the past lahx] whom she rejected 1o mighty years ago...and so the chase begins as the guy tries to win her heart once more and like every fallacy-filled fantasy, they would eventually fall in love n make babies..indirectly contributing to Singapore's population n raise the replacement rate to 2.1...ahahahx..abit of social studies there..man..i sae u gort it flaunt it..

okie..back to serius business..well..this kinda lovey-dovey dramas do get me thinking abt my future in the romance department.Hahax...i noe..its so unlikely fer a fat jester like me to ever ponder about the issue n love n relationship but i am human..evnthough abit on the heavy side..still human enuff to possess feelings n emotions like every other teen my age.I am not ashamed to sae this but i haf been rejected once..and tht was the final tot of anitin about love and all dt i ever had..heehee..i am neber gonna disclose any info abt the gerl..onli those very kloze to me noe..the rest..hmmm..let them juz guess..well..all i can sae ish tht it was painful..n i wasnt myself fer a while after the whole hubbub caused..tempers flared..tears streamed down cheeks and i can dare sae pple misunderstood each other..but i guess everytin settled sooner or later..hahax..i tink i was over-ambitious..Sumtimes i wunder whtr wen i further on my studies in another institution..[ hopefulli PJC!! ]..will i be involved in the turbulent experiences of love n relationship..I haf had pple tell me " So-and-so saed that u haf a great heart and u r so sweet..how can a gerl reject u and all dat"..and wad other stuff..normalli raining me wif compliments..but am i the real Jaryl hu fits the mould of wad my friends sae?...Sumtimes i tink i am not the real Jaryl i would want pple to see...if i perform in weird stuff like cheerleading..pple sae its gay..but y cant they see it that i was supportif..no other guy wanted to do it..so i dared to do it..i noe pple appreciate it and all..but there ish still doubt looming klose by...Wen i mix around wif guys n realli hang klose by to them its considered gay as usual..haiz..its lame..i haf heard pple saeing that guys in band are soft n wad not...r we?..how can we be so fickle-minded to think dat wae...hmm...

Okie enuff ranting..i haf been wondering whtr my msn nicks are abit too..hmm..how to sae..implicit..it confuses pple..but i am proud to sae i realli appreciate Mrs Tan fer asking abt it wenever i chat wif her..She seems to realli interested in it..she once saed she btr stepped up the quality of her nick coz i am cuming up wif more "cheem" stuff..hahax..i dunnoe.its juz natural fer me..i guarantee they are all original...here's my current nick n its intepretation:

well i hope u can read it..it goes "the mirror reflects my tears n lies__in this turbulent world of fallacies__x will you hold my hand?

It basically means that i am starting to realise that i have to learn to let pple see the actual side of me..my actual wackee personality and tht i am human enuff to feel sad n cry even.I am also realising the fact tht in modern context there are many instances where i will be left battered n hurt...n all i need n long for ish sumwan to hold my hand n lead me to a brighter dawn...n too whiper to my ears this werds.."Everything will be fine Jaryl..I am here..."...if onli it wer possible...time will tell...yeahx

caught a razor butterfly at - 3:48 AM |

__ThinK it's tiMe

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

My fren Dean commented that the previous entries were abit profound and "cheem"..hahax..well i haf reverted back to the standard of english i am supposed to haf potentially..i am not showing off but my friend [ some other person other thn
Dean ] saed i should write like what i am capable off..so tts it..yeahx..kaput..bon voyage..capish..n wad not..

Well i wuz juz wondering how unusual si it fer me to miss the debaters so much but i dun evn feel a little yearning fer my klass back in JJC...Ya sum of them did help me but i onli feel a little sad to see them gone..hmmm..i honestly feel lost about this issue...It was very different bac in WWSS..i practicalli wanted to spend evry moment before graduation wif my klass..we weren't that kloze but we still united on sum concerning issues like making fun of tchers and the overall best on running away frm Ms Sim wen she finds out we skipped a particular klass all in the name of P.E..yeahx we were that passionate about sum stuff..i mish those daes..But i haf forged a bond wif certain peeps in JJC tt i feel inseperable...wad i am confused abt ish y arent they my klassmates?..The debaters..a clique of eccentric and eloquent pple..and tts juz the tchers..hahax..we students were juz as wackee n hardwerking...One off my all-time favorite peeps were Esther..Clement and En hua..yeahx we rocked..we were very kloz..evn made fun of each other ahahahax..esther seems to be a victim all the time..o0pz..

I still remember those daes we practised for the debates and all dat..Samantha.Esther..En hua..Akesh..Lydia and mua..hahax..wif Mr Kong and Mrs Tan..yeahx..those were the daes..The main event saw the inclusion of Namz n Priyanka..and we as usual crapped here and there..it was fun..yeahx

Gonna haf a debaters nite out..hopefulli i can rekindle the memories..Well all i can sae the prob btwn the Charmed Ones seem to be subsiding..hopefulli we can get over our differences n becum klose agn..Its sad to an extent but i wish to see us back as a gang...

To Ayuni: in order to access the moving scrolling words [move right] ur msg [/move] or [ move left] ur msg [/msg]...ya then u can enjoy moving texts..ahahahax

caught a razor butterfly at - 9:03 PM |

__my desktop renewaL

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

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Hey guys..here's my current revamped desktop..u can see a pix frame..a real werking keyboard and the audorable dancing gerl n puppy..[ he ish shaking hish booty in the frame.. ] yeahx and dat "PJC xP" things ish my counter..Its counting down the daes to my results of the JAE poting and i hope it reflects on the PJC xperience i wanna undergo..I oso haf a translator which has my msn nick translated to Japanese..yeahx..i am in heaven..ahahahahx..And dun ferget the haiku generator and my quotes manager..hahas..its so kewl..hope it retains like this and dusnt crash or anitin...Aniwae i would like to extend my sincere appreciation to JUDY hu helped me discover the way to post my desktop pix..thx alort JUDY!!!..hahax..toodle-loo...

Aniwae if the pix is to0 transparent due to my blogs nature kindly klick on this link.. http://photobucket.com/albums/v520/purple-blizzardry/?action=view&current=mydesktop.jpg and u can see it fer its splendour!!...

caught a razor butterfly at - 8:14 PM |

__a revolution of changes

Finalli procrastination has left all my cellulite-filled cells and decided to loom onto some other gullible soul..hooray..in other werds i finished the whole JIS registration thingy tht has evidently caused such a hubbub amongst heartlanders that it has forced the education minister to hide in shame and average "paiseh-ness"..muahahahaax..aniwae my choices were obvious..onli pjc and jjc..Lame rite?..i beg to not be thrown into IJC..puh-leese..a fat boy aint gonna do any good to a sports-oriented junior college..most probably i am gonna tarnish the whole school's name and force it to be the breeding ground of overweight evil geniuses bent on making the whole werld reflect upon its cellulite roots...domination ish ours..muahahahahax..hmmm wads rong wif me..apparently i am leaning to the dark side wif this post..haahahax..heck..most probably darth vader ish my real biological father..oooooo...juz like the star wars epic..maybe i can star in the fourth episode..hahax..yeahx i am imaginative..

Aniwae i haf finalli spiced up my whole computer desktop image using the program from www.konfabulator.com wich allows u to download wacket "widgets" like a werewolf tracking device [ juz a moon phase monitor-dun get too excited ] and clocks and stuff.I got a picture display and a jap haiku generator on my desktop topped off wif invader zims puppy dancing and this jap anime gerl boogieing next to the recycle bin..does aniwan noe how i can freeze the frame of my desktop so i can publish it in this blog for viewership purposes?..hahax..its cute and all and realli britens my dae..

Oh ya..dont aniwan of u guys realise that recently it hash been the rise of anonymous tagboard-loafers hu happen to criticize the person's blog...I noe its no use getting in a row wif such imbeciles but i feel obligated to my frenz..it like duh~ the blog ish to state ur tots openly w/o the fear of ani ass hijacking it...its downright childish and i hope it ceases..one asshole wants to fight wif me on my frenz blog..like hello?..dun u tink we are all modern n civic-minded human beings unless u happen to be primitif and gauge ur status wif "paikias and mat-reps" thn too bad..i cnt help u..juz stay outta pple's blof..a fair warning my frenz..dun be afraing to voice ur opinions n dun be afraid to fight fer ur rights or ur blogs rights..hadios munchachos!!..=P

caught a razor butterfly at - 2:12 AM |

__missing the dayS

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Well..apparently i haf gone into seclusion...I am so pathetic i am running away frm my problems evntho i run very slow..I haf not been toking or even answering my calls on my hp fer a long time...All dats left is a long list of missed calls..Wads wrong wif me??...i wunder if the answer ish inside me or must i search fer it in sum imaginative werld build around me..Haiz i juz wish sumtimes that the past nbr happened...I...I...I...its useless...i rather lay my thoughts in the dark abyss..maybe sumwan will hear it in there...

Hmmm...i realli hafen dun my registration fer the sch thingy...tink my chice would be

1st.PJC sci
2nd.JJC sci

and tts all...i am juz worried dat i mite be put into Innova..coz frm wad i heard the govt ish gonna shove like 8oo of us there...juz hope i am not one of them..Sumtimes i tink tt i am abit too eager to start in PJC..the band..debates..hmm..new frenz...i dunnoe tink its all gonna be a huge discovery...I am soooo gonna study hard to enter the skewl's scholars prog..haiz..hope i can make it..i wan to take 4 subjs and oso take S papers..yeahx i noe its ambitious and all..but i want to redeem myself frm my o level results..juz hope it will cum thru..haiz..

in the midst of planning the debaters gathering...i mish the moments..yeahx..JJC rox..but i hafta leave to make my dreams cum true..i am sowie tht i am leaving the frenz i made there...hopefulli i can meet them again...Wish them all the best..no matter wad..we shall look upon the dawn of a new future...I wish i can be brave agn..and stop hiding in my shadows..will u show me the lite??

caught a razor butterfly at - 11:50 PM |

__x-cHange??

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Hmmm..they dae obviously did not start out okie..WE as in me..Dean..Ziq..Farhana..Syikin and Christynn made our way to Westwood..Thn wen we enterd the G.O tht stewpid O.M saed tht i and Ziq can enter the sch...i was WTF??..me cannot enter the skewl..i entered the farking sch the dae before to take my farking results man....wad the farking hell ish wrong wif the farking sch..its official..i hate farking betty chou..the farking D.M and the Farking O.M and the entire farking sch..if the havent realise it yet..Ms Kok brought the school along wen she left...Wen the pioneer atche leave..the farking principal will onli haf a farking shell of a sch to rule...the she will farking noe how farking farked up she and the stewpid new tchers r....argh..sowie fer the rde language..normalli i am realli nice..truly...

Thn i and Ziq had to wait outside the sch until Chew Yen came aT around 5pm lorhx...lame..thn we proceeded to the venue...it was truly fun to hear other bands play..apparently the last three bands including us chose more contemporary pieces..pieces that were fast and showcased the modern talents of the band..i wised i cld hear St Hildas...Chung Cheng was good...hahax..hope we can realli get a silver..we onli haf problems in intonation but it cld actualli riun our chances in getting a silver..

On our way back..haish more bickering frm Sheril and Ziq..i guess it was juz a misunderstanding..but its weird..tht amongst these bickering parties the idea of breaking the charmed ones popped up..if it were to happen so be it..i shall not be the goody tow shoes fool hu alwaes feels bad wen my frenz fight..i tot we cld last fereva...guess not...

caught a razor butterfly at - 4:08 PM |