I dare you to catch razor butterflies

You could be happy & I won't know

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Duvet Detention

Satin snakes, that's all i see
You wrapping me in your iron fist
waiting for nothing but bed pole mania

You promised,
a million stars dancing across velvet
a dozen roses, pricking my heart
You promised,
three hundred and sixty-five,
twenty four,
one or was it sixty
shackles of your time.

Yet here we are
tussled hair & panting like sick dogs of dawn
Went under, and we never resurfaced
for jewels of life.

Four-lettered words plastered across
your smooth face,
no honey, it's time to let go
For you know what we are; really.
Not humans, they're conformists.
Not puppets, we're manual.

We're nothing.
Nothing but,
Two
Testosterone,
Cookies.

Impromptu poetry writing when i was pee-ing in my house toilet.
I'm hoping to insert the above poem in my anthology eventually. God i sound like some professional poet when I'm nothing but an aspiring & dreaming fool.

Well, I can't wait for the Wild Rice ! event till Saturday.
I'm really sorry for all the plans i made & wrecked. Next week ?

Irregular sleeping patterns are driving me crazy so i might as well just stop right here. Period.

* Girlfriends ( or even Boyfriends ) are the 21st century Fashion Accessory

You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go

And all the things that I wish I had not said
Are played on lips 'til it's madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you how we were?
But not our last days of silent, screaming blur

Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door

You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do

More than anything I want to see you go
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world

caught a razor butterfly at - 1:05 AM |

Stoned from Rejection

Thursday, November 23, 2006

I've been seriously been trying to avoid such a blog tag, but for the love of my future new bully repellent and buddy, SERGEANT ZHU QING, i shall brave the perils of random-ism. Muchos Gracias.

Name twenty people you can think of right now.
Don't read the question(s)until you've named the 20 people.At the end of this, choose five people to do this.

in no particular order

1.Noreen
2.Joyee
3.Deepa
4.Charmaine
5.Jenny
6.Nessa!
7.Zhuqing
8.Jingling
9.Hikari
10.Dean
11.Shaminah
12.Leedeeya
13.Maizura
14.Xinyi
15. Jo !
16. Stephanie
17. Sheril Nadia
18. Nazreen
19. Sammy
20. MS JASMINE TAN ! <3

How did you meet #14?
My clarinet junior lover and bestie of Maiz! how not to meet ?
What would you do if you didn't meet #1?
I would be alot less jovial and laugh and confide alot less. LOVEYOU!
what would you do if #9 and #20 dated?
I WOULD FAINT! brings the idea of "student-teacher" relationship to a whole new level! BUT I HEART THEM!
Would #6 and #17 date?
NAHHHH!! Nessa is into Border guys and Sheril into Hot Indians
Describe #3 :
My pal since January. Bitchy & straight-forward and with lotsa love for the ones she care for!
Is #8 attractive?
YES! She is one hot mama whom i'll miss dearly =( stay yellow my orange loving ex-eyecandy!
Describe #7:
HAHAHAHAHA! ZHUQING U DIE! SHE IS CRAZY AND FUNNY AND BULLIES PEOPLE ALORT! LOVELOVE! AND USES LIT QUOTES TO BITCH BACK AND MAKES ME LAUGH LIKE MAD!
#12 family members?
Mommy, Sister & Brother
What would you do if #18 confesses to you that she likes you?
She dreamt we had sex! but nah, i'm way below her league! anyway we're super besties!
What language does #15 speak?
ENGERISH! MELAYU AND CHEENA!
Who is #9 going out with?
HIKARI! HAHAHA! NOBODY RIGHT?! we rock each others socks & undergarments!
how old is #16?
MY LOVELY CUZZIN IS SEXILY&SAUCILY 17
When is the last time you spoke to #13?
NONGNONG AGO! we gonna speak this saturday!
Who is #2's favourite band/singer?
She loves the Pioneer Anthem. Inspiring! Nah! Lily Allen is her latest craze!
Would you ever date #4?
AHAHAHAH! nah! i would die
Would you ever date #1 ?
her boyfriend is botak, speaks with a british accent, vulgar and IMAGINARY!
Is #19 single?
nah uh uh!
What's #10's last name?
HAMZAH!
Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
She claims i had a crush on her! LOVELOVE SHAMMY!
School of #3?
Penguin Junior College. Same place i'm rotting in
Where does #6 live?
ERM! FARAWAY AT KATONG/PAYALEBAR! but i know her address says geylang or something!
What's your fave thing about #5?
She makes me laugh at the most randomtimes! She is one heck funny & smart lass
Have you seen #2 naked?
I would literally commit suicide.

Best CIP i had in my life.

The rejection,
The cramps,
The crazyness.

Will be missed.

Sam, Jaey & Hikari. <3

Continue to support the METRO SIF PROJECT FOR THE KIDS IN CAMBODIA!!

caught a razor butterfly at - 12:51 AM |

late night talks

Monday, November 20, 2006

The screams in my head are getting louder & louder and the dreams I've been having are ludicrous yet frightening.

I just wish there was a stranger out there whom i can just chat & sms with all night long.

till then I'll submit myself to songs from Imogen Heap.

caught a razor butterfly at - 11:29 PM |

2 Fashionistas & a Reject

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

so much for aufwiedersen-ing my gorgeous flubber butt here.

I would have taken a long hiatus but the fun i had today simply has to be documented!

My hair was surprisingly good today.
I felt superb in my get-up today.
& i went out with 2 extremely beautiful ladies.

What more could a guy ask for ?

Thanks for all the laughs and [ brace yourself ] ...

NEOPRINTS!!

YES! ME , JOYEE AND NOREEN WERE ULTIMATE TWITS AT THE NEOPRINT BOOTH!

I'm so happy today. & i'm glad i've such great ~~friends~~ angels in PJ.

Oh, about the previous entry, i think my hormones and angsty crap got the better of me.
I won't deny the fact that i've been subconciously ignoring people. It's almost like thoughts of some of my friends have gone POOF.

Gosh, i'm seriously jubilant .

All i need is just a cup of security.

- by the way, just a little tidbit. Noreen the non-punctual Queen saw Ms. Jade from ANTM 6.

Lucky biatch.

Any girls want a male companion for shopping? I'm available.

Can't wait for more fun.

But for now, i say aufwiedersen again, & hopefully it persists longer this time 'round

I need to rediscover myself & seek fresh male companionship.

wonder who Timothy is ?

caught a razor butterfly at - 11:49 PM |

Aufwiedersen

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

It just hit me. It just hit me how i have to say goodbye all over again. Say goodbye to the ones whom have somehow affected my life and pushed to what i am today. It's stupid really, humanity is stupid, education is ironically stupid & superfluous.

I hate myself for the past days. It just irks me to even think about certain things now.
I can't & i guess a part of me refuses to come into terms with what happened yesterday.

It's really foggy now, perceptively and prospectively.

Simultaneously, I'm trying to battle with my personal insecurities. Gosh , I have so much too.
Really, am i what i present to the world & my friends?

Guess i'll take this time off to think & such monotonous shit that all losers go through inevitably & eventually.

I realised i've been ~~IGNORING~~ few people these days subconciously.
As much as i say " Yeah see you soon " , I actually couldn't really give a hoot if i don't meet you down the street anytime soon.

See, SEE what has happened to me. I've become spiteful and all.
Fuck

I've been feeling short of breath these few days too. Maybe its a sign.

& with that, i say aufwiedersen. Aufwiedersen to all this fucked up & pent up shit.

I miss vanessa
I miss the cool gp row
I can't wait for the Metro SIF with samsam and hikari
I miss mai & xinyi

I miss the good ol' days.

Watch " Ghost World " & " Art School Confidential "
both written by Daniel Clowes
Fantastic satirical and ironic movies.

And just for added dramatic presentation,

Fuck.

Thank you.

caught a razor butterfly at - 9:22 PM |

Akeelah & the bee

Friday, November 10, 2006

The movie that made me cry at 5:30am in the morning.

caught a razor butterfly at - 5:46 AM |

daily deviations part uno

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Credits to Trisste & Leedeeya
Done in : Photoshop7
By: yours truly

* when i have my own deviantart account, that's so gonna be my copyright mark. <3

Things are pretty smooth - sailing ... for now .

I'm in love ... with a Lutvian Boy

caught a razor butterfly at - 3:45 PM |

showers expected in the evening

Thursday, November 02, 2006

I ran a pathetic 2km and walked like 1km in the evening as part of my " Get Hot or Die Trying " regime.
Think I'll keep up with the 2km run for about another week and then increase in intensity to a 3km run. Gotta jiggle those jugs honey!

Well, me being really stupid, i forgot that today was the start of the GCE A LEVELS!
Though i doubt any intelligent creature in the upper ranks of Junior College would ever cross my blog's path, here's to you guys!

GOOD LUCK & I FREAKING HAVE FAITH IN YOU GUYS!

Inevitably, i can't wait for the A levels next year. So what if i gave up in the science stream. Time to rock the Arts and shake my gorgeous bootymus all the way to the top.

Well, i'm coming up short on what to write.
OHHH!!!

I went to Amirah's Grill to celebrate Haziq's 19th [ though he claims its 20th ] birthday!

So a shout out to the birthday boy! MUACKMUACK!

Erm.

Can i say that i'm feeling rather down.
Though i made it, i still feel sad to see the others go
I pray, pray they will make it somehow.
Retaining aint half bad. I did it & look where it's brought me.

Sometimes, what people say subconciously hurt me & i feel the greatest urge to just hurt them back.

I'm not some friggin' girly girl shit.
Gosh, time to re-invent myself. For my sake.

* shots of devil's water & sips of sin

- drizzle

caught a razor butterfly at - 10:02 PM |