I dare you to catch razor butterflies

__campolicious

Friday, June 24, 2005

Miss me??..guess not..i dun tink aniwan wld realli miss me..after all i am the dark abyss..each second..i see myself fading..hmmm..the band camp was everytin i expected..its was i dunnoe..fun to the max..But i acknowledge the fact tht both seniors n juniors made it fun..ya..Maiz Dean Sheril..and the rest..haha..yup..they made every hour a joy..totally

DAY 1:

I got wet to the core...by Dean..haha..i assisted Wawa n Maiz in dunking a whole bucket full of water upon Dean for revenge..thn he did the same to us..so it was me n Sheril running around Maiz n Wawa like insane kids..yeah..and Mr Wong was sniggering away..haha..thn we ate and wad not..I missed Ms Lee so much,made fun of her n exchanged some catty remarks..i enquired if she thought of hafing a cameo appearance in Batman Begins as Catwoman...she declined to give any comments..
The nite walk was where i laughed alort instead of screaming in terror..i was stationed with Maiz,Dean and Sheril..We were supposed to gif out the clues while Dean n Maiz scarec them by popping out frm boxes..In the midst of all the scare tactics...Dean received blows frm campers as they kicked n hammered his box n maiz fell in her box due to the panic caused after the declaration of her being hot..haha..onli pple present would understand..yup..We stayed up the whole day..doing homewerk n listening to music..Wawa was telling stories of naked kids which made me so paedophillic..Maiz n i laughed until we rolled n fell..n this was at the wee hours in the morn...wacko..but nothing was more satisfying thn making late night snacks n drinks as friends..

DAY 2:

In the morn after everyone woke up..we just played games n wad not..kinda anti-climatic frm all the excitement the previous morn..hahah..yup..Hamidah gort DM..congrats..n congrats to the rest as well...
oh well..i met Karasi..she saed i din work enuff to get into a good jc..argh!!..wad crap!!..haiz..wad the hell..it was fun while it lasted..i drooled on the way home like mad..haha..Niagra Falls man!!..Day 2 was like blooper day..i almost fell n wad not..

I will alwaes remeber todae..it was fraking fun..i hope we can do this next time..as one whole gin-gang again!!

caught a razor butterfly at - 11:34 PM |

__maybe its fading

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Been a long time since i even peeked into my humble blog...Well life hasnt been a cuppa tea or a luscious bed of roses for me these past few daes.In fact..argh..I just feel so angry at myself..I still look the same due to my incapability to lose weight..haha..well wad the heck..I din realli fulfill my wishlist for the holz..yup i wanted to // ice-skate..//watch movies..//ride a bike at East Coast..// bowl..too bad it all seems fantasy now..i dare say that band has absorbed most of my holidaes..2 freaking weeks of it..I onli rested on the third week man..This week i will be involved in so many debates stuff..To be honest i preferr debates to band..And i am not scared or ashamed to say..the socrates club rox..2mr i will be going agnst VJC..RJC and HCI..haha..dead man..i am freaking cowering in a corner at the sight of their names in print..haiz..i hope the band camp would be worth it all...

__I watched the two saddest episodes of As Told By Ginger..haiz..it made all my memories rush back to me..those gentle moments where i was infatuated..hmmm..i realised that thruout my life i haf been scarred by gerls n females alike..well..wad the heck..its fate i guess..I weighed down by my emotions...i mish the security i use to haf..no its all broken by the peircing words of an entity..I dreamt of us..ya all of us..but even in the dream i was segregated from reality..Guess its al a makeshift mockery until reality taunts n torments me...Nobody would understand..ya..fuck the charmedd oness..i dun belif in that animore..i believed to much on a collective noun..how juvenile..now i hafta pay the price..i am utterly dumbfounded abt all this..i thought it would be different.. I dragged myself into this..now i am left to fend for myself..i can feel the crimson fuel in me slowly seeping out..Tink i am letting go..time to put on my mask n blend into the masquerade..nowan would bother..

Love u guys..evnthough i noe the feeling aint mutual

___phark the world!!

caught a razor butterfly at - 11:05 PM |

__ envy

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

I am a jealous whore..might sound abit weird but its true

I am jealous of __________ [ fill in the blanks ]

-nerds
-hunks
-coolios
-couples
-smartasses
-the rich
-the fashionable
-thin n well-built peeps

haiz..envy..i succumbed to it..hope u can save me..u guys are my onli refuge..

To sumwan kloz to me : i didnt know another form of the charmedd oness existed..i tot it was juzt the six of us..guess not...maybe its true..the weather ish changing..but its too late for tears..i will go wif the flow..i hope its all a lie..untrue..fallicious..coz i tink the truth will hurt more..heck

caught a razor butterfly at - 9:58 PM |

__happie bdae dean

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Its dean's bdae..haha.myself wif maiz and sheril n amira went gift hunting for Dean..in the end we settled for a brief wif " Sex Slave " printed on it and i bought him a tequila glass wif sum wacky phrase on it..haha..today was fun..i ate alort man!..phew..it was truly memorable..Dean hope u had fun dude..!!

It made me realise that i can onli be myself wuf my sec skool friends..They noe me inside out.. We can talk about anitin under the sun.. yeah tts how much i mish them. Especially the juniors..i remember in Westwood..i wld wave to like everyone w/o fail coz we knew each other.. in pjc no matter how hard u try..u will neber noe the whole freaking student population..Sumtimes i feel so lost in college..especially during band..its like i mish those days where i would be in my old tuba section..Wif me..Farahin n sheril..haha..I cant believe "SOME" PJCSB pple can be so pessimistic abt our performance..c'mon people..wake up n smell the coffee...it wasnt that bad..sheesh it made me feel like i was the onli dumbfuck guy in a positive mood..at least i tried my best to be lively n contributed to the feel of the music wif my exaggerated yet musicality-adding movements..yeah!!

I cant wait for the camp..can't wait for debates..yeah..i realli mish my friends..wish they were here wif me...so tht i won't be so lonesome..

Mish wwcb n the charmed oness... waiting for tht day!!

caught a razor butterfly at - 12:48 AM |

__long time indeed

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Its been wad..days..weeks..months...since i saw the gentle lustre n glisten in ur eyes..It was nice to be back at home..to be wif u guys once again...i felt whole once again..it was nice of u to sae i look cooler..haha..it was back to old times i guess..we snapped here n there..we joked like before..but i am afraid..tt we may not be in tht same happy picture..once we go on wif our lives..will u forget me??

forget our moments?
forget the times we fought?
the times we cried?
the times we fought for our rights?

i guess not..we made a promise..unspoken n all..yeah..to be foreva as a gang..a group of lovefools..we shall be friends alwaes..juz u guys n me

As i waited for my heart to come up wif a verdict my friend..skyy..saed this to me...

me: i dun tink i wanna quit

skyy: gd fer u..tts a wise choice

me: realli??..u mean u knew i wudnt quit and all?

skyy: ya...

n we toked abt lotsa things..i am realli fortunate to haf u..and dean..n sheril..naz n maiz..i dunnoe wad i wud do w/o u guys..Dean i am oreadi mishing ur lameness in band,,nowan understands me other thn the charmed ones..haha..till next time

Loving euu guys eachh dayy...i am waitingg..to be the best..to experience the truth..but best of all..i am waiting to beat myself..n to know the true Jaryl..

Helpmewillu?...Justholdontomyhandandleadmetothelite

caught a razor butterfly at - 1:09 AM |

__ i never will

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Guess i never wil noe how its like to be the object of desire..yeah right..puh leese..hmm..Rezwana saed i am awfully quiet this days..al i can sae ish..Is this Jaryl??.Come on Jaryl get a life..why yearn for the past yet scorn at the future..You noe wad..i tink ur a loser Jaryl..u cant tink right and cant definitely eat right..tts why ur so obese..Hmmm..How can u o around hoping to like gerls and getting in a relationship when pple call u a gay when u hang around wif other male fwens..Oh Jaryl Jaryl..why the he did u go into a Junior college when u r strugling academicaly now..Man i wanna spit in your face n mush it all up...

jaryl..maybe u hafen realise that u arent the nice person everyone tinks u are..maybe juz maybe u shud look into the mirror ever so often..wait a minute..i dun want u to hafe 7 years of bad luck when it falls into pieces..* cermin ku retak seribu *..Dun go moping all over the school u calepek coz it aint gonna help..When will people ever learn about ur ways..u say ur strong within n smar and wad eva crap..but all i see in u ish juz a scum filled loser in this insensitive world..man i wish u wud die.

*** This is angel dean: dun die too erli.. haven make space for u in heaven.. [ we are honly badaks afterall ] *** me stomach grumbling, gotta go...

DIE JARYL DIE!!....DIE in the darah neraka...[ bloody hell ]..I tink u gort sum Maane Pacha Nei [ attitude problem ]...dun die so soon Jaryl..coz i will be waiting..

Signing off,

Your friend foreva..

Marquez Hudson

caught a razor butterfly at - 1:53 PM |