I dare you to catch razor butterflies

__its all OVER

Monday, February 28, 2005

Haiz..it hash cum and hash pass..thank gawd..well..o level results..hmmm..wad can i sae..hahax..reached sch all flustered..thn tht stewpid Betty yak and yak abt the current batch and all dat and saed our batch din du well and all dat shit..thn she revealed the top students..i was searching my name on it..unfortunately mine was nower to be found..hahax..btr luck next time Jaryl...Den Ms Sim kolled me to gif the results..i was freaking scared..i scored distinctions in EngLish..Humanities and Biology...i am juz sad i din get a distinction in Chem and my maths..Lame siahx i get B3 fer both my maths....hahax..amounting to 15 pts...well i deproved..boohoo..but i am happie...everyone was congratulating me evn tchers..i am hoping to go to pjc and start anew..wif new frenz and a new life..band and literature..hmmm...I hafta sae goodbye to the idea of getting into NJC..its okie..thx to my frenz i didnt cry..hahahax..all of them rox...esp the charmed ones and macaroll...u guys..i love ya....

I am juz gonna sae thta its all over..no use crying now..its the end...lets juz join hands and brave the briter future ahead..I love u guys..my frenz..u mean so much to me..maybe one day we shall meet...congrats to all the top students..u deserve it...till my jc life in march...i cnt wait to take new subjks...cnt wait fer debates..cnt wait fer band and all dat..hu will i meet?...hu will i be bestest frenz wif?...hu will i cry over?...i shall noe in a few months as i embark on my next journey of JC life...time to werk hard....

caught a razor butterfly at - 10:06 PM |

__bo0kwoRms

Sunday, February 27, 2005

Hey there..I went to the library to borrow sum comics as usual todae..I am such a comic freak..hahahax..Met Ziq and Maiz at our scheduled time and place..Met my uncle Albert at the bus-stop to..chatted here and there until he had to leave fer his meeting wif his frenz..leaving me and my frenz..we boarded the 198 and kecoh-ed all the way to library..It wuz freaking crowded man..so irritating..thn we saw Wahidah and sum buddies..Maiz closed her eyes and asked her to guess and by touching her boobies she guessed correctly...I was amazed man..touching the mammary glands will enliten the true human being...hahax..i am being perverted i noe...We met Sheril after we left fer lunchies..Den we made so muchies noise at LJS too..wackee bunch of pple yeahx?...hahax..dats y i spend my time wif thm..Thn we made our way bak to library to make more noise and help haziq wif his projek..so much fer Sheril studying..at least Maiz made progress..hahahax..Sherilwas reading a book on teenage sex..hahahax..crazee gerl..orh juz fer the moment here are the rankings in the charmed ones profile:

Jaryl------->Bitch
Haziq------>Slut
Dean------> Whore
Maiz------>Bitch [ 2nd in command ]
Nazreen--->Slut [ 2nd in command ]
Sheril------>Whore [ 2nd in command ]

Pesky rite we?..this ish the nonsenze we cum up wif wen left by ourselves...hahahax..at least i am a bitch..leader somore..hahahax...Thn we made our way back..Sheril made evn more weird gestures abt haziq's dance attempt and also accidently threw sumti at a man...hahahax..ohmygawd...she ahx...can evn suggest pole dancing moves..freak siahx...thn we snapped sum pixes here and there and it left me and ziq walking back home....

Its fast realli...i will be kollecktin my results tmr...its all a blink of an eye..i juz feel dreamy..i dreamt i was the top student and in my dream i was screaming in joy..but i noe it will onli remain a dream..onli a dream..unless a miracle happen...good luckies to all my fren..hope we shall all look to a briter future ahead....

caught a razor butterfly at - 11:21 PM |

__MusicaL preLude

Saturday, February 26, 2005

Hmm..u noe wad i did not sleep the whole dae frm ytd to todae's 8am..thn Haziq kolled and i had to rush to Westwood for band...band was okie i guess...We practicalli went through the concert repertoire smoothly until we reaced the part of Patrick vs Judy...Apparently it wuz all a misunderstanding...It's like Mr Wong saw the note as a F instead of a G and this caused lotsa confusion on Judy's part...Thn she juz made sum common hand gestures...noting offensive of course...and Mr wong tot otherwise...Well all i can sae ish that this whole issue wld haf not haf happened if Mr wong would haf gotten to noe ALL of us..not the favourites..not juz the leaders and not onli the suck-ups and kiss-asses..yeahx..he hash to acknowledge the presence of all band membrs.I am sowie if i haf offended aniwan by saeing that..its fact c'mon pple...

Luckily there was still Sheril and her eccentric antics to perk up my dae...she and her imitations of flying off on her tuba..weird gerl..sumhow everyone ish drawn to her..evn me..We two haf planned to make a fool of ourselves on the performance day in front of the judges who are musical proffesors mind u...That's how crazee we are..a fat boi and a weird gerl...perfect combi...

Well...was abit sad since my froggy that Jana gaf me fell off..I was so sad and searched the whole of JP to find it but it was all in vain..i mish my froggy...he reminded me of my past ventures wif my frenz..now he ish lost...tink jana will kill me if she finds out..oh no..it was my bdae prezzie..sowie Jana..i am such a loser...On the other hand i met Jiahui at the gift shop..omg..i haf not seen her fer 4 yrs oreadi..juz chatted her and there...we toked and acted crazee...cnt wait to meet her agn..mish u Char Kway Teow...Haziq helped me wif my hair...shld look btr...Tmr will be a full dae of library thingamajigs..if onli i can sneak out the house agn w/o aniwan noticing me...hmmmmm...mission impossible??...i tink not

caught a razor butterfly at - 11:24 PM |

__It's Coming

Thursday, February 24, 2005

Well...it is drawing nearer..every second..every moment the doom and gloom gets closer to me...I can sae i was fooled since i was expecting the results to be tomorrow but in the end it decides to rear its filthy head on mondae...So i sae bring it on baybeh..Its gonna be a sad dae..evn if i get good results i am gonna be sad..its like the official day of saying goodbye to my klassmates and frenz....i am gonna mish thm so muchies...the memories..the laughter..the wins..the losses..the gossips...the teases..mainly juz being 4 horizon...

JJC rox too i guess....gonna mish everyone there...sumhow i juz hope it wld be a briter future fer myself and my frenz..its hard..its painful..but we can onli hope fer the best..another dae..another opportunity to rekindle wads lost in my werld..be it memorable or treasured....

caught a razor butterfly at - 11:59 PM |

__sch bLues

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Haiz...i feel very hopeless now...I realli cant stop tinking abt the o levels man..its like i nebr evn cared about it wen i wuz in sch thn all of a sudden..rumors abt the letter..speculations abt the release date..they are still lingering around me...I even dreamt yesterdae that i was ripping the results slip open onli to see the number 13 bearing at me and worst of all i dreamt i got c5 fer ENGLISH!!..i tell tts not impossible since i wrote a story fer my compo that cld fetch me extreme marks...either F9 or A1...i am sooo stewpid....

I haf not been to sch fer so long liao...few daes ba coz of my foot infection thn ytd my mummy ask me if i want to go sch this week anot..thn i say y lahx she ask untl like dat..thn she saed she hash been noticing tht i barely haf any mood to study and go sch..why waste this time..instead its better to stay at home and truly revise and wait fer ur results patiently...haiz..everyoneish wundering hu the top student ish..ya i oso wunder mahx...Tink it wld be either Yi Fong or Chang Peng but it wld be realli nice to see y name as one of the top students or better evn the top..But that dream ish far long gone..i tink i fouled up..tink i haf dun myself injustice..well i dunnoe..its juz 2-3 daes more...thn i shall noe my results...

Was talking to Pat ytd on the fone..thn she sae nowadaes i slack alort somre last time i beri guai de..haiz..dunnoe wads happening...i am not bad-mouthing pjc or anitin but sum pple sae pjc hash a lower reputation compared to jjc..but i dun wanna stay in jjc...i feel an urge to start anew in pjc..the band ish btr there..the combi's are btr there too..the building i hope its btr...well..i honestly dunnoe..all i noe ish alort of westwoodians will go to jjc de....i am still dreaming of going to njc lorhx..maybe if i am lucky i will get reults that are sufficient fer me to put my ass there and take my dream combi of bio ... chem ... and lit...somehow njc looks like the place to be intterms of studies and the pple there...sumtimes i regret leaving sajc...but i noe..it was neber meant to be fer me to stay in a sucky sch like dat..i am onli left wif praying that fridae wld be a dae of celebration fer me....onli...juz maybe....it mite not happen...

caught a razor butterfly at - 2:49 PM |

__Love fiesTa

Sunday, February 20, 2005

I woke up in the morning all tired juz to go fer band..ahahax..band todae wuz okie i guess...besides being scolded coz our band wasnt realli together and all dat..haiz..there ish still so much more things to improve...Realli enjoyed the time wif Sheril all coz she was making fun of the 'expressivo-ness' of a particular player and evn tried emulating her..all i can sae to Sheril ish hope u are able to fly above everyone during SYF 2oo5...hahahahax..Thn myself..Maiz..Dean and ZIq went fer lunchies wile Naz and pokang went on a secret mission...waaaaahhh..detectives sehx...hahax...so long i nbr eat at Kenny's Cafe..still the same..we talked alort abt how lame the tchers in Westwood are being and the new happenings...

Thn we went to my sch's Love Fiesta..all i can sae ish tht they hafta learn sum stuff frm Westwood man...we were ultimately sporting and kinda shameless during our Westwood Experience..it juz makes me feel more nostalgic man...WWSS rox...but not now wif the bitch and her minions frm hell...hahhax...It wuz okie..met wif sum old frenz..Winnie..Dean and Ziq made their hair cooler...well i guess the highlite of the dae was wen Dean met his old crush-er Miss-I-Can-Fry-Potatoe-Wedges-That-Are-Not-Cooked-ProperLy a.k.a ANJALI..i haf heard so muchies abt her and to tink she was under my nose all this wile...eew...she gort no shame lorhx sae that Dean like her last time not she like him..as if she ish sum kinda high in fat whore....eew...thn we all made our wae to cLementi....Winnie met her Dear wile we Met Ozie and Syahid and watched 'Hide and Seek'...

Conclusion of the movie....: its okie i guess..pretty unexpected but if u dun wanna waste ur money juz skip it entirely...yeahx..on our way back saw Chey yen ans Marzuki..they were so crude lorhx..hahax..wad onli Marzuki sae that Chew Yen gort a tendency of attracting pussies...hmmmm...eew...but we at least learned sumtim lame...well...tts all dat we can learn frm them..ahahahax..pussies...puh-leese

caught a razor butterfly at - 12:22 AM |

__rumoRs

Saturday, February 19, 2005

I haf not been going to sch fer a total of three dae oreadi due to my fungal infection on my foot..Its realli joyful to noe that pple du care..My Civics tutor msgd me and all dat and evn Limin [ st margs ] msgd me..shoooooo shweet of them.aniwae i told Limin dat i am officiallly a walking mushroom cultivation...so if u need ani Shitake or button mushroom..juz cum to me horhx..thn i harvest fer you...gawd i am soooo lame...

Aniwae i went fer band in WWSS todae and heard the big huha abt Judy as she struck back at Aziz..drama siahx..band was kinda boring coz it wuz sectionals..i am such a hypocrite coz i haf not gone fer one JJC band praktis...haiz..hahax..den i made my way to meet Esther to go to Orchard library to watch the Jc debate finals...ACJC vs HCJC...we evn played a little game at this shop at Takashimaya...and left poor Enhua by himself..lol..hahahax..later we were reunited wif clement too...too bad Samantha cudnt make it...Stewpid siahx..i noe that ACJC gort plenty of style but i guess it was clear lahx dat they shld win..well i guess it shld be an honor to debate agnst them..i sum sort thing its dejavu..coz i debated agnst presbyterian high in my 1st dbates and we lost and presbyterian high managed to be national champions..here i debated agnst ACJC and lost and now the are national champs....haiz..Supposedly the tchers were meant to eat wif us like sum kind of family dinner thingy.but none made it leaving us to eat w/o them

Ate at Yoshinoya...the food was okie i guess...hated the Teriyaki sauce..indeed it wus yucky...hahahax..realli enjoyed the time wif cLement..Enhua and Esther but i cnt help feeling sad nuntheless..its like i am gonna leave this pple no matter wad..i dun see myself staying at JJC..too risky i guess..i wld like to start anew after my results..but i will miss them dearly...hope this times will stay ferveva...juz hope...

Hmmm..plenty of rumors going arnd abt the O Level results and the MOE tchers letter thingy..apparently those hu received the letter either received btwn 14-19 pts fer the actual o levels or gort an average of 17 pts...Hu to blif?...i do not noe..evnthough the principal iron out it all..i still remain sceptical...i din receive the letter..so according to the rumors i either gort 13 and below or screwd up realli bad and received 20 and above...waaaaahh its getting freakier by the moment..well tmr ish the Love Fiesta and i am not involved..yeahx..so i can slack in WWSS then go JJC thn watch movie and slack somore...still gort plenty of h/w and test cumin..haiz..wen will i be free?....

caught a razor butterfly at - 12:56 AM |

__bdae blues??

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

I am officialli 17 yrs old..hooray!!...Jana and Pat got me a prezzie ech..so sweet siaxh..i love u guys...i got a Billabong pencil case..the big kind somore frm Pat and a cute froggy handfone thingy frm Jana..Haish...sumtimes i wunder wad i wld do and be w/o them....i juz dun wanna tink of dat..its too painful...Practicalli all the westwoodians wished me a happie bdae..lucky i came to JJC..or elz i at SAJC juz paiseh onli coz nowan wld tok to me lorhx...Evn my klasmates frm 05S04 wished me..so shweets...thx Xian Xu..Michelle..Chitra...Ti Lin..and not fergetiing..FadiLLah..Ria..Adillah..Nadzirah and the mani others hu made my dae rock....

I am totalli screwd in terms of chemistry..i cudnt do the damn praktikal lorhx..answer all wrong..thn wrong method of titration and wad not...guess wad..i failed my maths test..i.5/15...so stewpid siahx..at least i didn't get zero....i kinda expected coz i dunnoe wads going on lorhx..somore the pple the tcher assigned to teach me didnt help at all..juz looks like i hafta run to my WWSS frenz...

P.e was tough todae...ran three rounds around the trackk....i wuz friggin slow lorhx..bleahx..thn all the guys had to assemble in grps and carrie this heavy wooden logs arnd the track and up and down the stairs on our shoulders..etc...Toing siahx..its wus okie lahx..tiring of course but fun lahx....Tmr i am not going sch..onje ting ish tht me foot hash this bad rash and infection causing my foot's skin to peel off and all dat..its pinkish red now lorhx..so itchy siahx..i am oso taking the dae of to catch up on all the tutorials i mished frm the beginning of sch..haiz..tink i am gonna screw up and end up retaining...wo mei yo hope..help me..Esther asked if i wuz 18 todae..cum on esther we knew ech other since primary sch lehx..thn i saed lahx tht juz becoz i big dusnt mean i old..the Limin [ st margs ] wuz like laughing like siao and sae i not large..i xtra-large...waaaaaahhh..not bad ah..u gort a sense of humor that i like..den wen i saed bubye to Chin CHin she wuz so taken aback that i knew her name..haiyoh i ur klass rite of course noe ur name de....cuckoo....hahahahahax...

I was all alone
And decided to run away
From here u led me on
And prevented me from going astray
U guys are my angels
Wif brite lites u potray
But will i leave u guys and be ungrateful
As i look forward to a brighter dae
I am torn in between...split in mind
i shall now juz hear wad u hafta sae
Sumtimes i wish i cld turn back time and reminise the past
The times we were happie and indeed gay
But it is imposiible now as we tend to our own paths
I mish u guys...juz fergif me and help if u may..

...dedicated to all my o5so4 mates..westwoodians [ both those of JJC and my frenzz ] and of course to the many frenzz i made in JJC..love ya guys

caught a razor butterfly at - 11:03 PM |

__v'day

Monday, February 14, 2005

valentines rox man..i received sum prezzies..ahahax..frm Jana..Yi fong..Weiting..my klass rep and maiz..yeahx..Actualli i din feel like cumin to sch todae..felt like puking and all dat..well..sch ih okie lahx..i gott tons of shitty test to study fer and to many piles of h/w...hiash...the rise of evil:hitler movie rocked my socks todae...ahahahahax....practicalli a bore todae

Met dean...ziq and maiz to fetch sherils prezzie..she gonna be shock man..ahahahahax..well..tmrr ish my bdae..hope fer the best and hope this stewpid entry ish able to be published..stewpid blogger!!

caught a razor butterfly at - 10:10 PM |

__of scuLptures and haiR

Sunday, February 13, 2005

Hmm..i went on an arts frenzy yesterdae...at ferst me..Pat and Wei ting went to Sculpture Square fer research purposes on our Arts Module Portfolio Task fer GP....Wen we Reached there there wuz this stewpid notice stating that it would be klozed till Mondae...wad??...Haish so we walked walked and walked till we reached the SIngapore Arts Museum...hmmm..not bad..we got a ferst hand glimpse of the Botero Exhibition..well it wus a bunch of paintings revolving around the distortions of fat pple...well..in dat case he shld haf not wasted his time and juz painted a potrait of me..myself and i...theres plenty of me to start up a whole new gallery...yup..i am so shameless...

Thn i met Haziq and Dean to eat and cut my stewpid hair..well all i can sae its super dee duper diff..well dats wad i tink...hope u guys like..i am doing a little sumtim fer the gerls hu haf impacted my life one way or another..its juz a small gesture of thx on valentines day...its also sherils bdae..HAPPIE BDAE U POKANG...she ish so gonna be shocked by her prezzie...ahahahax..well all i noe is i haf not dun aNi homewerk and i still hafta revise and dat i need to write a parents letter to explain my unruly laziness last fridae....haish..so mani things..and i still gort the cheeck to blog and all....well...thats me....

I wuz lost and nower to be found...
That wuz went u lent ur hand towards my path
Though my dreams refused to materialise...u stood by me
If onli this cld last fereva
But i wld be foolish to tink in dat manner
Will we be known in ech other's hearts
Or will this be just another delusion?

onli i will know.....

caught a razor butterfly at - 5:19 PM |

___pon

Friday, February 11, 2005

Well i din go sch todae..onli three pple noe the reason y..and i appreciate that they haf been there for me keeping my flame burning..thx guys...u mean alort to me..aniwae...I went fer band todae...I toked to Mdm Kaliane agn..apparently everyone in njc is on super hyper mode in terms of studies...guess there isnt ani time to slack down there..Somore NJC ish onli expecting a few students on their second intake..Luckie siahx i decided to join JJC and not wifdraw frm studying..at least i haf a basic foundation....evnthough its very weak..band wuz okie..went in time juz to hear Miss Lee tok...thn we went on a roundabout and all dat..rather mundane if u ask me...nothing muchies...

Saw Miss Straeten on tv todae..regarding her son...ish pityful..to noe that gawd wld restrain happiness frm her....Its sad to noe that a baby hash to go thru his life as per normal while his parents though hopeful..will never erase tht fact that anitin mite happen..y muz gawd do such a thing...weLL..like my mum wld sae..gawd werks in mysterious ways..and i hope this is the case..and Ms Straeten wld be strong...fer herself and her famili...

Have u ever??

Have you ever felt like giving up?
Have you ever felt like crying?
Have you ever felt that the lite ahead is slowly dimming?
Have you ever felt all your hopes diminishing?
Have you ever felt like slashing yourself?
Have you ever felt that stuffing your face in the pillow would release your pain?
Have you ever felt like screaming your lungs out and to let your pain out?
Have you ever.....?

I have......

caught a razor butterfly at - 9:47 PM |

___tonG Tong cHiang*

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Yeahx..finaLLi the holidaes are here..Its been rather hectic man..laughing and dancing and debating and getting lost aroung the campus..i noe its pathetic but thx to all those hu haf helped me so far especially to Patricia and Jannah fer expanding my friendship circle and oso fer helping me not get lost..It wuz fun todae..We went fer mass dance and i juz bullshitted my way coz i haf yet to learn the respective dances..my gawd..i dun evn noe the sch song...boing...After dancing thn gort the sch concert..if wuz kinda dead..it wuz juz me..Jannah..Yi Fong and Rei Xiang shouting like gongs and laughing...Limin [ st margs ] wuz totalli laughing at us....she ish a nice gerl...helped me alort siahx..lend notes and all..thx a billion...I am totalli astounded by how JJC band sux to the core..to tink that i haf to join them...evn Westwood btr lorhx..sad enuff...ahahahax..after the whole hulla ballo created by masses of food being eaten and me going on a frenzy to wish the tchers a happie new yr...[ btw Mrs Tan rox!!..she wuz so kool and funky todae!! ]...thn the whoLe of Westwoodians frm JJC ran all the way frm the sch gate to the bus stop...chasing a 198 bus and singing the sch cheers..yup..its official..we are mad..at least me and Jannahx...

When we reached Westwood..Bettty was.." GOod good u rmbrd to cum back in ur original hair colors..."...-_-??....hu asked u?...the bee-yatch [ esther's fav term currently ] wuz sittin there all sour puss like..in ur face Laura..we were wreaking havoc...verballi and she juz sat there like a dumb bitch...ahahahax..she paisehx coz she scared we the alumni wld be supported by the other tcherz....It wuz realli fun...Naz u rox gerl..ahahahax..so far i haf onli sold $6 worth of my fun fair tix..sobz..must beg....beg beg....ahahahax...

Went home wif Haziq..SheriL and Naz...half-way thru the journey i felt emo..haish i am weird...and juz fer the record... I AM NOT A FAGGOT!!!!!!.....

I met Kurusamy juz now..woahx..gher hair...wild man..she was wif Balgit and Vergis...Tamil tigers wannabes..or shld i sae Tamil Tigress..wah...roar!!!!

Gong Xi Fa Cai....i am gonna catch up on life this holidaes and pray tht my results wld be good...

caught a razor butterfly at - 6:46 PM |

__aFresh

Monday, February 07, 2005

Honestly i am too tired nowadaesd to write..juz to tell ya my life in jjc truly rox man..fill ya in tmr...

caught a razor butterfly at - 10:10 PM |