unfortunately for you , im a male bitch
i'm single, unabashed and some label as a gay-wannabe
throw yourself in a duffle bag 'coz the epitome of hypocrisy is me
kiss, kill, relish
*smooches*
and if this happen to make u say " GAYSHIT " then i suggest you go
get yourself a half priced life during the Great Singapore Sale
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weekend pre-hysteria
Friday, September 29, 2006
I'm officially the sexiest fatty bom-bom that ever graced PeeJayCee
Well, at least Shaminah thinks so....
Neh nehny poo poo *with extra toppings of poo poo for you*
General Paper one General Paper two Literature Paper one : Poetry & Pride and Prejudice Geography Paper one : Physical Economics Paper one : Case study Economics Paper two : Essays Biology Paper one Biology Paper two Literature Paper 5 : Identity Geography Paper two : Human
Nowadays, old doesn't necessarily mean gold.
Each passing second, i lose my interest & faith in you.
It's been two years, in the running. Two years from being a typical twit to someone sophisticated Two years from melodramatic to emo Two years from being Jaryl to Jaey
I did my CWO on the 23rd Watered plants and i was damn happy to have Shar as company!! THANKS GIRL!!
Gp was, hell? difficult? disappointing?
I wasted my tuesday morning & afternoon.
I've got some announcements to make :
1) I've gotten used to your absence, in fact it kinda made me hard and cold 2) Busy?
The above applies to SEVERAL people.
Lit and Geog soon. * it was good seeing Xinyi, Maizura & bumping into Naz & Sheril
I realised that every youngster wishes to be special, but for me, i wanted normalcy and conformation.
However, subconciously, i did not attain that at all..
Let's see, when i was 12 years old, i said this to my brother : Me : Daryl, i want to go to the normal stream!! Daryl : No, you must aim for express Me: but, i'm normal what?! so i aim for normal stream, i'm not that smart or special to enter express.
Lo behold.
Here's another which happened when i was 15 :
Me: Ms Rozi, i want to quit the council. I want to be a normal student. Ms Rozi: I don't see why you can't be both a councillor and normal student.
That was the year i lost the post of being the President of the Student Council in Westwood.
See my flaw?I was trying too hard to fit the steretypes of being a "normal" student when i clearly did not fit.
I guess we are all special eh?
There's so much to do.My geog's in a mess. Econs is unpredictable and i'm lost in Lit.
Mama, i still remember the day you cried when you heard i'm to retain. Next week.. I'm going all out for you mom.We crashed & burnt , all in our delirious heads
you'll never in your life meet someone else like me....
People in love get fast and foolish People in love get everything wrong People in love get scared and stupid People in love get everything wrong
At least they're not lonely At least they're not lonely They'll never be lonely
B-b-b-b-b baby I think I'm going c-c-c crazy But why should I be sane without you ah They tell me to fight it Well they can bloody well just try it I'll never be the same without you
People in love get special treatment People in love get everything wrong People in love their hearts get eaten People in love get everything wrong
At least they're not lonely At least they're not lonely They'll never be lonely
B-b-b-b-b baby I think I'm going c-c-c crazy But why should I be sane without you ah They tell me to fight it Well they can bloody well just try it I'll never be the same without you
Ah, Ah, Ah
Never be lonely ..
Was feeling gaseous; like a fat and over-sized balloon. So i left school early
I had an extremely good talk with Joyee about our past memories & experiences in secondary school and what not.
God, i pray, that my close friends get promoted.
Wonder if God receives e-prayers & e-hyms?
... & didn't i see you crushing my notepaper heart ?
I danced with my aunties and cousins to disco music I pigged out and stuffed myself with food I read so many Archie Comics I sat on the Bed my Grandma used to sleep in I watched the rain from the view of the foyeur
Thanks guys for all those words of good will
I'm really happy i had a good chat with Denver and Ruiming !
Babe, i know you won't be reading this but...
Lydia i miss you
I'm tired cynical and broken, but wiser heavy with a sense of resentment but i used to be so much different i used to have so much faith when i started you knew that i always meant it i knew i could make a difference i struggled to be heard and then finally, one day people started listening and i knew it but as soon as it began it was ruined a slow descent from unique to routine over and over "just do it again and this time with feeling" the spotlight the focus on the friends and the feelings that made those stupid songs all worth singing and don't you say a word unless you're pretty sure that you want it analyzed so we drove for what seemed like days over roads
and four lane highways
we said all we had to say and i realized in time that it didn't mean anything
never not ever again... not like that "it's only a matter of time"
Well, since the next 4 weeks would play a part in my future, let's see what's up if i make it through my promos :
1. SIF/METRO CAMBODIA FUND-RAISING 2. MEDIACORPRADIO/FIRST MEDIA WORK SHADOWING 3. OGL? 4. PRE-U SEMINAR 5. A J2 FINALLY!! 6. COMMON TESTS, MID YEARS, PRELIMS, A LEVELS 7. NEW FRIENDS 8. 2007 PJC DRAMA PRODUCTION 9. PROM 10. MUCH MUCH MORE!
well if i don't make it :
I GET EXPELLED
not an option, not an option at all.
PROJECT RUNWAY SEASON 3 is COMING~
I do not give a sh*t ! my mondays and wednesdays are so gonna be exciting!
time to get back to my work which has been piling up since i spent 10 hours slacking!
- ethereal, am i fooling myself?
peach & lime decorum ; we used to play by the sidewalk
And now the itineray for Wednesday the 13th of September :
Things to do or die trying
1. Annotate my 10 ++ Plath poems by tonight 2. Annotate 11 Chapters of Pride & Prejudice 3. Study some econs in particular National income 4. Tidy up my Plath Journal 5. Try to do my AP for extra GP work
Don't you just love procrastination.
I majorly screwed up my Gp test today and the paper was from MI! My perceptions have really changed! MI IS TRYING TO KILL THEIR STUDENTS WITH TOUGH PAPERS!
and all i'm left of you is just a shadow in my memories.
am i the only one or are we _________ ?
first impressions. Do i really pose a bad first impression to you guys?
So far i know i come across as :
- arrogant - gay - number 1. target for people to hate - loser-like
- Woke up 30 mins late - Wore a pair of mismatched socks - Rushed but missed the bus and train respectively - Decided to take the taxi but didnt have enough money - So i had to walk from Teck Whye Lane to school - Reached school 30 mins late -Was booked for my 3rd latecoming offense - Lit essay not up to teacher's expectations
And the Earth spins 'round while the people fall down, And the world stands still, not a sound, not a sound. There is love, there is love to be found. In the worst way, in the worst way, in the worst way.
It's the buzz, it's the buzz, it's the buzz. It's the buzz, it's the buzz, I wish I was. It's the buzz, it's the buzz, it's the most fun.
From a little shell at the bottom of the sea, With the Earth and the Moon and the Sun above me, But the world fell down with some people still around, There is love, there is love to be found.
With the gods all gone and the souls making sounds, In the worst way, in the worst way, in the worst way.
It's the buzz, it's the buzz, it's the buzz. It's the buzz, it's the buzz, I wish I was. It's the buzz, it's the buzz, it's the most fun.
From a little shell at the bottom of the sea, With the Earth and the Moon and the Sun around me,
There is love, there is love, there is love.
It's a buzz, it's a buzz, it's a buzz. It's the buzz, it's the buzz, I wish I was. It's a buzz, it's a buzz, it's a buzz.
Gotta thank the bestie. You really know how to salvage me from the most complicated emotional letdowns that i experience. We watched the Devil Wears Prada and went grocery shopping. That was all that i needed to get back in sync.
While i was trying to sleep yesterday, i kept on thinking about relationships - having one and the lack thereof.
Oh wells.
It's been 6 years, & we still do the things we're best at.
I need to embark on a serious " GET HOT OR DIE TRYING " programme.
Guess i'll try to reconcile with my fruits diet in school again. And i hereby swear to not touch anything from the school canteen except for those fruits [which i suspect are taken from the nearby neighbourhood dump] in an attempt to be HOT and SKINNY by the end of the promos.
I have loads of stuff planned out for the "after-promos" syndrome.
Had another Westwood Concert Band dream again. Gosh. Guilt trip 101.
3 days more to the opening of term 4. More tests, more exams, more assigments, more lectures and a whole lot of stress.
Hands Open - Snow Patrol
It's hard to argue when you won't stop making sense But my tongue still misbehaves, and keeps digging my own grave.
With my hands open and my eyes open I just keep hoping that your heart opens Why would I sabotage the best thing that i have, Well it makes it easier, exactly what i want.
With my hands open and my eyes open I just keep hoping that your heart opens.
It's not as easy as willing it all to be right Gotta be more than hope that it's right. I wanna hear you laugh like you really mean it Collapse into me tired with joy.
It's not as easy as willing it all to be right Gotta be more than hope that it's right. I wanna hear you laugh like you really mean it Collapse into me tired with joy.
Put Sufjan Stevens on, and we'll play your favorite song, Chicago bursts to life in your sweet smile remembers you My hands open and my eyes open, I just keep hoping that your heart opens.
It's not as easy as willing it all to be right Gotta be more than hope that it's right I wanna hear you laugh like you really mean it Collapse into me tired with joy.
It's bugging me for the whole day and i just GOT to say it. S, YOU'RE A F*CKING RACIST !
we were having a human geography lesson on Gender and Racial Inequality [ the irony in it all ] and the teachers had a slide of Martin Luther King with the words "It's not fair!" sprawled across.
Guess what that Racist said ?
Racist : Of course not fair lah! He so black, where got fair?
Seriously? Is this what PJC ARTS FACULTY'S CLASS OF 06A** WANTS TO CHURN OUT INTO THE SINGAPOREAN SOCIETY?
I felt like burning him there and then. Its not the first time. Every day, Every-f*cking-day he has some stupid racist comment to preach about. Lame shit
Sometime i just feel that i'm too good for PJC. I know this sounds super show-off since i'm nothing but a retainee in some people's eyes, but c'mon man!
So far, I've seen tons of racists, jock-wannabes and cheena craps. Nothing more. I've met only a few brilliant people.
God.
i've finally realised how attention seeking some person i know is. Disgusting. utterly.
As far as it goes, I'm really protective over some J1 friends of mine. If i hear one bad word about them, just ONE bad word. I promise i will just slap them with my ascerbic tongue. One good whip.
May i also add that i love Rezzie so much.
Thanks for being there. And what you said about this year being good, its true.
Its so hard to find a nice guy presently eh? Most guys i've met are super jerks and i wonder how girls actually hook up with us.
Random thought but i can't believe one past rejection from an individual has scarred me for life.
As much as a whine about wanting to have a crush or girlfriend, that sorta sappy stuff, I've realised its a waste of time on my part. I'm the happiest boy being a "girlfriend" to others.
Jing Ling once said that she treats me like a girlfriend And i told her thats what most girls tell me 'cause i have done one thing not many guys have done - earn a woman's trust and give them the respect they deserve.
ARGH! school gonna start. Back to that fucking racist wastedump.
I hope you don't mind me saying I think you're so lovely I hope you don't mind me staying Cause I might never leave We could rewind to nothing And start at the beginning Don't forget to breathe
- beginning stanza from "Sleep on it" by Saving Jane
Only a hermit would still remain oblivious to the latest news that have been spreading all around the world. When i heard the news, my family and I literally screamed. I let out the loudest yelp amongst my family members because i have a certain affinity for people with the passion of animals.
Rest in peace Steve Irwin. I will always respect you and your wonderful works.
I know some people might belittle me chuckle when i say this, but i'm not fettered one bit.
Its always my dream to study zoology in Australia so that i can gain internship and work at the Australian zoo under the guidance of Steve Irwin. Big dreams for a "little" person? Maybe so, but it doesn'r hurt a wee bit to do so. I still hope to one day break the barriers of the rigid Singaporean Education system and take the one true love as my study and profession - zoology.
Anyway, today was no different. I had three lessons non-stop - bio, lit and econs.
I was rather fazed today but oh wells. Noreen gave me a humongous stomach cramp in the train as we were teasing about Singaporean pronounciation and ennunciation. Then we had a toally kick-ass talk about the paranormal and stuff.
Seems like a rather mundane entry eh?
Tension tension.. can you feel it?
May i just add that i ABSOLUTELY love Ms Jay from ANTM!
I hereby swear that no matter what, i won't be a boy full of facades. I'll do the stuff i want. I'll be with the friends i know who are true.
Joyee said something kinda true today :
" Jaryl you're ok with everybody in school except the indian boys "
very true. very true indeed. I'm not being racist. Oh no no no!
I had a wonderful time with the chicks. I had fun, did you?
People around me have all found their significant other. People getting attached all over the place.
It just leaves me with one question : " when will my turn come ? "
oh just to inform you guys, at 12am , 31 August 2006, 2 cats were having sex outside my house in celebration of Maizura's birthday! Peace be upon the cat population.
I know you're nothing but a puppet master, you ain't my true friend. Never was, never will.
I'll leave you guys with two of my latest creations. Enjoy. 3 weeks to my promos.
Lotsa love to Maiz , Xinyi and Esther for subconciously cheering me up this days. Hallelujah!
