I dare you to catch razor butterflies

__to retain or not to retain

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Give me a F! Give me an A! Give me an I! Give me a L! Give me an E! Give me a D! Now put it all together and wad do you get? FAILED! ...thats rite one more time now.. FAILED! whoopee ( throws pompoms in a frenzy ) ..

yup i freaking failed all the freaking promo papers...from maths to bio..all O ! haiz...onli managed to pass GP and MALAY!! damn..i tink i am in serius shit...

think most prob that i would retain unless they take pity on me and let me sit for re-exam

man i wishi did better, i do.....

caught a razor butterfly at - 1:48 PM |

__all downhill from now

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

i feel like a failure...nothing but diappointed in all my past and present endeavours. Sometimes i ponder why in the world did i ever try top outdo myself. I was rejected by the student council to join the OGL team and now i just found out that the Debaters are pretty much breaking up so we might not participate in the upcoming Red Cross Debates this week. while they were arguing i just sat at the staircase staring into the sky....wishing...wishing....

Its all breaking up...all my dreams...all my hopes..all those things i was looking forward to...its all over i guess..i'm never going to feel whole again..

i just tot tht maybe i would give PJC another chance...guess not..it was a mirage that i refused to believe away..its my fault..

the moon has peeked out to chuckle and laugh
as i grab onto a shard of glass
I cringe in pain and hold on tight
as i bring it forth and slash my right
the crimson tide comes dripping in a wave
i watch it splotch
by my bed
i can't be whole
i cant be the same
its ll because
i refuse to say your name....

*******

thats ur name
now guess the game...

its not the same again....never was..never will

caught a razor butterfly at - 2:08 PM |

___the start of my feelings

Thursday, October 13, 2005

its been a rough ride thru the promos. I hope that the results would favour my promotion to year two in PJC.. i wouldnt want to spent another year in this hellhole. so far the papers were all manageable on my part. I'm proud to say that i managed to nly complete my malay and GP paper..the rest had many blanks as if i was emulating the style of a weird old antiqued jigsaw. I was feeling a little woozy from all the adrenaline and all those depression modes i tend to switch into so often...

i was really happy to noe that NUS has zoology....whoopee but i heard the admission criteria is tough man! guess i hafta morph into a nerd...

hahah..its crazy..my feelings all engulfing me like phagocytosis man...[ too much bio in my blood ] hahah i'm in puppy love heaven..haiz..

aniwae its my third day of fasting..another of my dieting ideas hopefully it will work and i could shed sum serius pounds...

yina saed that Marina saed i had a nice smile....* blushes *

malay was okie i guess i got an overall of C5...

Paper 1 : 28/70 [ damn i misintepreted the qn ]
paper 2 : 74 / 110 [ whoopee]

guess hard work pays off.. =))

i wonder if u hold onto
the hopes that i feel
do you noe the secret of my heart
that haunts the hollows of my shell
will u sae a little whisper
to calm n caress the turbulence..
will u sae those tender words
that i long to hear n feel
would u?
i would if it were not a dream
i would...
for you...

caught a razor butterfly at - 3:39 PM |