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The beginning of Finality

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Just Snippets of the last day of the academic calendar.

And just like that, i say goodbye to one brilliant year ; though its barely November.
A year filled with trials & tribulations.
A year filled with diminishing enthusiasm & pioneer mojo
A year filled with new comrades & old camaraderie
A year filled with tears, ego-emo moments & delirious laughter
A year i'll never forget & never wanna go back to
You could say ..

It was bitter-sweet while it lasted.

I was supposed to write about something else, guess i'll postpone it

A tribute to the times i'll never forget.

Good luck my friends, for our fates will be sealed tomorrow.
No matter what, i assure you.
Friends Forever.

It's always good to be cheesy at times.

Arts. All i ever wanted

To the best class i've had -
06A01/06A05

* 'cause tomorrow seems a little too far away

caught a razor butterfly at - 1:22 PM |

dip it down low

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Ho ho hum! I've been a despicable lazy bum!

If you happen to have seen a large kid decked in kiddy berms and with a really humongous wild hair, most probably you bumped into me during the open house.
I wore a wig! So finally i had enough hair to cover my barren scalp!
I took plenty of pictures, felt like a circus freak cum supermodel that day. i'm still waiting for her highness Sharhana to pass me the pictures. I would have loved to say that Open House was invigorating but i felt it fell short from Rockopioneer. I actually felt that the Westwood Carnival 2004 had more zest. Some pioneers acted shy which totally disgusted me. Not to mention the types of rejects we attracted. I'm sorry for sounding so harsh but c'mon. We attracted tons of lians, bengs, mats and minahs.

Well that aside. I finally received my Promo results. I think i'm assured Promotion
I really really improved. I failed all my H2s during mid years but i passed 2 H2s during promos.

I nearly got an A for GP. Received highest in class for Essay though *beams*
I GOT B FOR GEOG! A humongous jump from a fail!
My econs was a D which is not bad considering i failed it during mids. My case study boosted my grade!
Bio was horrible!! I passed but its only because i almost scored full marks for Paper 1. Paper 2 was beyond dreadful.
Do not talk about Lit. Though i scored better than Mids, I still failed it. I'm still moping over it.

So that creates a spread of BBDES.

A levels in 365 plus days for me.

Though you guys might not think of it as important.
But witnessing even the slightest improvement in your grades makes me really happy and proud.

I'm proud of you my friends!
Especially to Deepa, Charm, Noreen, Joyee and Hikari!
I'm really happy that Jenny is the top in class! I heart that smart butthead!

Goodnight and Go - Imogen Heap

Skipping beats, blushing cheeks; I am struggling.
Daydreaming, bed scenes in the corner cafe,
And then I'm left in bits, recovering, tectonic tremblings.
You get me every time.

Why'd you have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you.
Must you make me laugh so much?
It's bad enough we get along so well.
Say goodnight and go.

Follow you home, you've got your headphones on and you're dancing.
Got lucky, beautiful shot; you're taking everything off, watch the curtains wide open.
Then you fall in the same routine, flicking through the TV, relaxed and reclining,
And you think you're alone...

One of these days, you'll miss your train and come stay with me.
We'll have drinks, and talk about things, any excuse to stay awake with you.
You'll sleep here, I'll sleep there,
But then the heating may be down again,
At my convenience.
We'd be good, we'd be great together.

Say goodnight and go,
Why's it always, always
goodnight and go?
Darling, not again,
Goodnight and go.

THANK YOU DEAN FOR THE INTRODUCTION!

i abso-shittypittywitty-lutely love the song.
Not that it coincidentally speaks of some stuff.
Its just...
that...

it relates. the chorus.

Jap exchange emceeing tomorrow!

- * every minute . i'll swing the other way ; soon enough honey

caught a razor butterfly at - 9:57 PM |

Wednesday

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

One word to sum up the whole of today : Weird

Ultimate frisbee 3on3 was great in the morning. Just wished more of my classmates would have come since today was like practically the last p.e lesson we would have together.

After that, i rushed with the designs for the Tapestry Project and chatted with Hikari till GP.

Was running around with a tapestry collection box and a humongous industrial roll of plastic wrap.

GP WAS FUN! PLAYED PICTIONARY AGAIN !

Heard that Ms Sarizah most probably would not take my class for GP next year.
SHIT!
Nomore cheesecake treats
Nomore rants and raves about the latest shit happenings in school
Nomore fun activities
I'm gonna miss you Ms Sarizah
Thanks for all the fun times and study times since Jan 2006!
Your the first person to say that i exude a History Student Aura !

Drama meeting was wacky and i gawked at Ms Sarizah and Mr Sas.
It was fun. Seriously fun. Loads to do! FUNFUNFUN

CCA Leaders Dialogue was ok.

Open house Rehearsal was tiring

Le-Sigh

What an aimless entry.

-

you say you dream of my face
but you don't like me
you just like the chase

( bet denver would go : ACTION ONI MINAH! USE MY FAVE SONG QUOTE! )

caught a razor butterfly at - 9:34 PM |

looking back

Sunday, October 15, 2006

CHARMAINETHAMISTHEFUNNIESTGIRLTOPLAYPICTIONARYWITH

When she was asked to draw a belt, she miraculously drew something that resembled so closely to a penis that we were all in shock.

Oh we love you soo, and your queer drawings during GP lessons.

It. Felt. Good.
To clasps my hands once again without contempt
Indulgence, of a holier kind.

Remember, & remember well,

too much pain, without a gain

Let's get wasted on a monday morning's worth of tears&laughter

caught a razor butterfly at - 7:04 PM |

superzeros to superheroes

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Don't we all need a masked crusader? One whom defiantly goes against the social norms just to deliver a punch or two and the ever so illustrious upside-down kiss. One who would sacrifice every ounce of righteousness left on him just to save a loved one. One who everyone sees as a menace yet you yearn for his presence.

We all are superheroes in our own ways i guess. We all don a costume at night, hoping that nobody would recognise our crime-fighting, just to keep our geeky alter-ego under covers. We all wear masks that hinder the truth within.

It's a diffult process, but we all do it ; go through it ; wish for it.

We want to be hoisted up from the realms of danger, knowing that the one entity in all normalcy possesses the superhuman strength to lift us up.

We all stand at the doorways of our superheroes, waiting for them to look up and see them. In the end, we are left with nothing but to move on and beyond.

Lackadasical or not, we overlook the sacrifices these superheroes make. We forget their dreams and whims they forego just to save you.

They constantly look out for you. Just to save you.

Important question is,

What have you done to save them?

We all have superheroes, its just that we're too focussed on the superzeros.
Look closer, you might just see that geeky plump kid swinging from skycrapers in an attempt to stop the vile villains in your little crime-infested city.

& the phone's long dead, yet i'm still talking

caught a razor butterfly at - 8:03 PM |

ho hum , the smellybum

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

I just gobbled 6 sins in the shape of black cookies with vanilla creme. Major calories

In the morning, the Principal was talking about the latest PJC publication that would hit the public bookstores. Man, the way she was talking about it made it seem like some top notch ENGERISH book but to my horror, it was meant for CHEENA POKS!

Seriously, PJC is nabbing all the glory in the Chinese Arena. No wonder why though.
I suggest they put forth english lessons to communication-impaired students interested in being a Student Liason Officer for Pre-U sem. Nah i'm not being haughty! It's just that the level of engerish is really deteriorating in school and they can't expect some cheena pok with the signature line of " Harlow i'm Mary chew, may i helpch chew? " to serve in NTU!

OH WELLS!!

My timetable finally redeems itself as i finish lessons at 11am and get released at 1230pm.

Oh and i think i'm gonna forego being an OGL. Boycotting the SC and associates?
Hmmmm i don't want another OGL partner whom i don't communicate anymore with neither do i want it to be in the house system form because its really tardy.

As usual, i foresee my attempts of weight loss will be foiled due to my lazyness. crap shit

Tata!

Today's entry is so not emo. NO FUN!

caught a razor butterfly at - 4:03 PM |

(re)morse code

Monday, October 09, 2006

I didn't get into the worshadowing programme.

It's okay i guess, i was never keen on Law, but radio was a dream and looks like it still will be and remain that way.

I'll try to squeeze my gorgeous hiny into some Zoological Workshadowing thing.

However, i did get into something great which i won't bother mentioning.

I'm very very tired. That's practically all i can say at this juncture of my life.
I'm too afraid to even ponder on what would happen if i don't make it this year.

You know you're absolutely divine when you can pinpoint my change in attitude and behaviourial patterns as a response to someone.
You know you're absolutely divine when i can see why you drool over that guy in your moto razr
You know you're absolutely divine when we three will miss each other if even one of us goes.
You know you're absolutely divine, and we know that too.

a toast to you, the one who gives me cramps every day from laughter

VANESSA! YOU & ME BETTER GET OUR CORPORATE SEXY BUMS A JOB! <3

RUN - SNOW PATROL

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do (instead of did)

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

- those those i love with all my heart in pj
nah do not mistake me for those ah lians in love with snow patrol since jon leong sang that song
stupid cheena poks

* & the jester clapped his hands
1, two, 3
walked away, into your eyes ; love's demise

caught a razor butterfly at - 3:20 PM |

hocus pocus focus

Sunday, October 08, 2006

In about few hours, i'll be going out on my first date with my illegal lover and my ex-eye candy and her lover boy.

You know, i really do not give a fuck to people who claim to advise me to "change myself"

I'm happy being emo
I'm happy being "gay"
I'm happy being conniving
I'm happy being poetic
I'm happy being able to focus on those i love in PJ
I'm happy to have a fun family
I'm happy my paternal genes are recessive
I'm happy i retained
I'm happy to realise who are true
I'm happy that the distance in school gives us space
I'm happy
That's all that matters ; though i do have my usual wet days
I'm happy being Jaryl / Jaey / Barney / Hippoballoo /

but the most important question is,

Are you?

Oh not to forget that the CCA Leaders worshop was fun!
Its fun to know crazy people like Harold, Seow Ken, Christabel and the old, Eko, Joey and Brian.
Staying till 6pm is so worth it

I'm so tired of focussing on others and not myself

Its time to get over things,

with a hundred copies of Archie and a bunch of Merci Chocolates

See you guys on monday

Au revoir , C'est La vie

I'll take one step back and watch the fireworks ;

caught a razor butterfly at - 12:01 PM |

like i said

Friday, October 06, 2006

Well, like i said to Jing Ling this morning, i'll delete the previous post coz its simply full of shit [ there's that word again ]

I think Love has developed no meaning in today's world.

Won't say much but i was shocked when i heard of something that happened to my friend today.

Hopefully, the gerls can go for a bitchfest and we all can cry and sniffle away declaring how guys can be jerks and that would be my cue to say " NOT ALL GUYS ARE THAT BAD! "

I think I've officially become a 'female'

So as my first adventure as a female, i would want to be a lesbian and engage in hot raunchy Lesbian sex.

sooooooooooooo

after sitting on my bum for four hours waiting for the bell to ring, i realised that Jaryl is :

Antisocial
Overly Emo
Everyone thinks i'm popular but i'm NOT
I envy certain people
I wish i was in a better school without wooden blocks as students
I'm happy that PJC has people i can click with <3
Hypocrisy - though i find it a mouthful to pronounce, is my forte
I can't utter a word to those who hurt me
Have i mentioned that i'm emo?

I'm not here for your entertainment
Neither are you here for mine

I'm waiting for the day i would have the strength to shut down this blog and say goodbye

Letter in November - Sylvia Plath

Love, the world
Suddenly turns, turns color. The streetlight
Splits through the rat's tail
Pods of the laburnum at nine in the morning.
It is the Arctic,

This little black
Circle, with its tawn silk grasses -- babies hair.
There is a green in the air,
Soft, delectable.
It cushions me lovingly.

I am flushed and warm.
I think I may be enormous,
I am so stupidly happy,
My Wellingtons
Squelching and squelching through the beautiful red.

This is my property.
Two times a day
I pace it, sniffing
The barbarous holly with its viridian
Scallops, pure iron,

And the wall of the odd corpses.
I love them.
I love them like history.
The apples are golden,
Imagine it ---

My seventy trees
Holding their gold-ruddy balls
In a thick gray death-soup,
Their million
Gold leaves metal and breathless.

O love, O celibate.
Nobody but me
Walks the waist high wet.
The irreplaceable
Golds bleed and deepen, the mouths of Thermopylae.

oh how much i love to be her, i might die like her too

caught a razor butterfly at - 4:55 PM |

the after-s

Thursday, October 05, 2006

After moronically being flabbergasted by my Gp prowess
After whining that Pride & Prejudice would be the downfall of my Literature career
After staring in puzzlement at my Physical Geography paper
After crying and tearing my hair out to Doug and Jing 'cause i never bothered to study biology
After being shushed for chatting too loudly while studying for econs
After the wind and lightnings danced across the sky during Ariel&King Lear
After aimlessly highlighting my Lit text in fear of it being ripped by Mr Sas
After being drained by a simple term of Fertility

It's all over

but, as wise old sage Farah puts it :

" Why don't i feel happy? "

Good question... i can almost feel the guilt sipping through my skin
Funnily, the latest word of the week for me is shit

I practically used it in all my daily yabberings

[How was geog?]
My god it was like shit

[how was lit?]
Eh what siah, i dinnoe what shit i was writing man!

[how's things?]
Like shit

my latest project runway contestant crush!!

Don't you just love that stiff upper lip suave-ness he has
And he cried when he was eliminated!

MY HEART GOES OUT TO YOU BOY!

he said that he never had many friends all his life and being in Project Runway made him feel he was part of something.

*swoons*

stupid school starts tomorrow

I get to dress up on Friday night and Sunday!
Be a gorgeous boy

- as much as i want to blame and even hate you...

i can't

fuck that

caught a razor butterfly at - 3:16 PM |