I dare you to catch razor butterflies

__would you...

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

What would you do if ur closest of friends change?..They speak in riddles n become a whole new individual..They speak of death n wish to fade away..They hang out wif a myriad of people and you feel insecure coz u cant be by their side. They say they are alright yet u can see through their facade..wad would you do?..

Would you console them?..would you act as if nutin happened?..Would u run away at the knowledge of their deepest darkest secrets..?..Would u cry at the fallacies they bestow upon u?..would u?..or would u not?...i wouldnt know..neither would u..i know wad i would do...

I would act the same...like nothing has happened..no matter wad..they are still the closest of frenz..just dun speak of death..dun speak of the norms..speak of the times we spent..speak forth the days we are about to spent..speak forth of a new beginning..

I am starting to hate those cliche-people i am in contact wif..okay not so much of scorn but i juz cnt believe such pple exist..all i will put forth is that when two guys hang out wif each other..they are not GAY!!..puh leese...me a gay..hmmm..if gerls keep on being like this..i tink being gay might be beneficial...food for thought??

caught a razor butterfly at - 9:35 PM |

__finally a good weekend

Sunday, May 29, 2005

Alleluia..my weekend has been fantastic man..yesterdae was of course Saturdae and i went to school for my debates trials n malay camp..I told my Cikgu that i would be attending the camp late..meanwhile my team consisting of my grand daughter n sheryl were preparing..thn the coach came n i felt so nervous..haha..thn the debates started..it was all okie i guess..thn my turn came.. 3rd opp speaker..whoosh..it was like a verbal battle..me against the prop..all gaf POI's but i accpeted onli Emmaline's n Geetha's..hahah..thn it all ended...the coach saed my team's case was good n well structured..hooray..no winner was pointed out though..haha..but i tink its our team..he saed i was a very good 3rd speaker n didnt haf comments..omg..he no comments on me..total mind blank!!..

Thn i headed for the malay camp..damn fun man..we played captains ball..Cikgu Zainon joined in as well...thn gort guessing the kuih game..gort track games..haha..i even hopped in a gunny sack man..like one cuckoo..haha...thn we had to meet for presentation all...oh ya i forgot tht we had a treasure hunt as well which ended in all the participants being barracked by water bombs..my friends all aimed at my critical point lah..thn my pants was wet to the max!!..it was fun..the food the atmosphere..the walks wif the gerls n guys alike..haha..guess wad..i won most sporting malay camper [ male ] and Azura won the [female ] category..rigt on..she was the one who bumped into 3 guys during the telematch and made all of them fall down..haha..oh ya she saed i shld haf joined Volleyball..boohoo..i actualli wanted to join wen i was in JJC..weird

Todays ministerial visit was nutin much lah..i enjoyed the time wif the arts soc peeps n gim siong..my new found friend..hooray..haha..Mag calls him a big mouth..so sad...haha..the games wer okie i guess..i totalli adore Ms Usha Kumar..she impersonated a singlish-speaking graduate at the speaker's corner at my school...i noe its weird to haf school on a sundae but nuntheless it was fun..

I so mish the wwss pple and it was a joy meeting u guys again..the next time we meet..we will be defending our schools in the debates competition..gd luck my friends..haha..still cant believe ben told Beryl that i am a very good speaker..omg i am so gonna be a gossip topic in JJC debates..haha..i met new friends and the old...i am starting to open up i guess..i love myself..haha..narcissim at its best!!

caught a razor butterfly at - 5:55 PM |

__occupied/vacant

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Hooray i am finalli back in skewl after mc..we had phototaking todae..haha..hope it will turn out find..Lessons were as per normal..Hajis the usual..and maths was amazing coz i finalli understand wad is being taught..PW was lecture..yeahx..snoozing time..thn tht Betty Tong disapproved my grp gpp..=( bloody hell man..haiz..Chem tutorial was damn fun wif Mr Lee...he kept on taking in Yoda Language and of course making fun of pple..he saed my hair looked explosive..haha..wad onli..thn he saed Tanya was dangerous coz she has two guns..go figure..hahaha...i realli tink if i put in effort..i can finalli pass chem n not flunk it all the while..i haf been failing maths n chem..boohoo..haha..waiting for the June holz for intensive learning...

Went back wif Shar n Sheldon..was so sianz so i waited for thm thn took mrt home..bleah..i am so gonna be tired this week..i foresee countless sleepless nites..yeahx..Thanks Rezwana for voting for me as Debates President evntho i din get in..haha..n i hope u get ur wallet back..poor gerl..hmmm..here's my schedule for the week..guess i should practice abstainance frm the pc for a while..

Wednesdae

. Smart and Casual Day
.Pioneerama
.House carnival
.Band Meeting for Exco
.Debates

Thursdae

.Maybe chem test
.Debates
.Maths test??
.Malay oral

Fridae

. Jcdc workshop
.Debates
.band practice
.SPA for biologi
.Major bio test

Saturdae

.Malay camp cum bbq
.Debates trial
.Time to parteh!!

caught a razor butterfly at - 9:43 PM |

__silent tears

Saturday, May 21, 2005

Well i will cease all forms of whining..its no use now..all i can say is that i am a sore loser..yeah tts wad i can describe myself with...i haf been down with the stomach flu..sighs..i missed alort of stuff..school..missed the debates interview..missed the band interview..missed band..missed my seniors saying goodbye..haiz..nomore dean in band i guess..i cant look forward to band noeing that my bestest fren ish gonna make fun of me..tease me and make me happie in band..i guess from now onwards..i will stop looking towards the horns expecting to laugh and mouth lame stuff to dean..man i am so gonna mish u in band..3 months in PJCSB wif u seem inadequate..haha..hu ish gonna make fun about my jello in band?..hu ish gonna gif me weird stares and disrupt my concentration in band?..best of all..who am i gonna joke around and call me badak in band..?..dean ur such a lame fren and i am gonna miss u like crazee in band...dun let the tears sting...let them mark the dawning of a beautiful past..of memories worth fighting for...

Maybe what skyy saed was true..i try to hard..i wannna be everytin in everywer..wanna be the top..wanna be the best..now look where i am..nower klose..tts the cue pple..time to mock moi..i am just glad i am taking over dean..seems like the past ish repeating itself..love u guys..the seniors hu made me comfy in band...Fauzy and Kenny my dearest section mates i played beside for the SYF..seems it was onli yesterdae..guess i gotta be independent now..nowan ish gonna remind me of my slide positions..nowan to show me weird doll faces in band..mish u guys...

damn..Mr Kwek ish so gonna get loads of HATEMAIL!!....

caught a razor butterfly at - 3:43 PM |

__ [seer] ing heat

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

We all wish for sumtime by ourselves i guess...i am sick..hah..literalli i took two days Mc..actualli i feel elated with these two days of sickness..liberated from school and all its stresses..its been a fun week..i cant say all coz some of it is meant to be shared wif my peeps in pjc..haha..yeahx

As time passes by i tend to regret my actions..i am considering quitting..i dun fit in i guess..i oreadi haf a back up but my bestest grand gerl gerl ask me to stay in that particular gropu.she saes its better juz in case the Socrates club falls..haiz..but i dun feel attached musically animore..its sad i guess...i looked forward to lotsa things..and yet i see myself reiterating the same old whines i made a few weeks a go..its rather pathetic..am i so depended on the past that i cease to grasp the present and future..my oh my..i am in a sowie state..more things are coming in terms of that particular grp i am in..shld i continue..i haf no idea..once my friends go..will i be left to cower..can i handle it..i regret submitting the option form for our posts...totally regret..i wished i neber made the choice..honestly...

now dun misinterprete this...u can go ahead n say that i am spoilt or whiny..i dun gif a hoot..all i can say is that i feel that i am gonna make a humongo mistake..and its gonna hurt me...alort

caught a razor butterfly at - 12:54 PM |

__ [seer] ing heat

i had a good chat with sum pig todae..here ish the convo..it says alort i guess..i tink i am gonna experience lotsa regrets...

The Mystic Pig
	I asked the mystic pig: so most probably i will suffer in the band right? and the mystic pig said: You already know the answer to that one. Ask the Mystic Pig another question created by ixwin

The Mystic Pig
	I asked the mystic pig: will i fair well in terms of academics? and the mystic pig said: Ain't gonna happen this time round. Ask the Mystic Pig another question created by ixwin

The Mystic Pig
	I asked the mystic pig: is it true your bestest friends are your greatest enemies? and the mystic pig said: My mystic sense is cloudy on this subject. Ask the Mystic Pig another question created by ixwin

The Mystic Pig
	I asked the mystic pig: should i quit and give up now? and the mystic pig said: There are better options available. Ask the Mystic Pig another question created by ixwin

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	I asked the mystic pig: will the dream of doing well in the A levels be gone? and the mystic pig said: Not in the way you expect. Ask the Mystic Pig another question created by ixwin

guess i btr juz rot in a dark corner..haha

caught a razor butterfly at - 12:41 PM |

__as time fades

Saturday, May 14, 2005

Holy MAMA..i haf not been bloggig for a hefty amount of time...well its coz time seems to fades amongst the myriad of activities that i am in..hmmmm..PJC lost to YJC and RJC for debates..wad a downer..hmmm..i honestly lack the motivation to blog diz few daes..i am so lethargic now..its like i haf a huge burden upon me..
I am starting to see that my involvement in a musicalli-inclined ' organisation ' might deem detrimental if i continue to act like a total ass..hmmm..guess i am unable to let go of the past...I dunnoe how dean does it..he seems to be so amiable so friendly..and i??..i am wad pple call darkness..i tend to hide in the shadows..waiting to wither in the abyss...xxx...xxx..xxx..i am dead..its kinda wacky i guess..i didnt go for the bbq ytd eventhough i told Sharhana i was eagerly waiting for it..i guess it was a momnts reprieve that i realised i belonged sumwer elz..was it a right choice to join ***SB or did i make a mistake not joining the choir...??..well i am still in the art sock and that good enuff..i juz want to make it for the jcdc and see esther..yeahx..to see my best friend..so far it seems she and the usual charmed ones including my granddoughter r the ones i can connect emotionalli wif..haiz..i tink that maybe i neec a metamorphasis phase in my life..i wanna change for the better..

When i went for the sex forum..i realised alort abt r/s..yeahx..i tink its realli great that i forget abt that sumwan i noe..we are not alike..why act blind wen we noe that we are not gonna be meant for eternity..i seem to blabber onli..blabber to the whispering wind...as i look forward to a new day..all i can say ish that i am gonna make a whole lot of mistakes when the weel begins..juz pray for me...

It realli touched me when u saed that u didnt wanna see me but u wanted to be wif me..gerl..ur the true friend aniwan can ask for..though u may be in another sch frm wer i am...i tink we will alwaes be linked my heart..i mish u and the pple i left behind in jjc..it seemed that maybe i made a mistake moving to my new environment...maybe..
Just wait for me ya?..thn we can meet up and be the usual lame pple we were..i am looking forward to that..my memories of the yesteryears are the onli things keeping me from being damaged n broken...muackz...

caught a razor butterfly at - 7:34 PM |

__back to basics

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Yawnz..haha..damn tired..due to severe lack of sleep i guess..sch life has reached its pinnacle in hectic-ism..hahax..tmr ish the syf!!...hooray..yeahx..finally..Today we had bio lecture..and i was shocked that the tcher Ms Oh was able to call my name out of the whole cohort of J1 bio students..wow..she doesnt evn teach me..apparently she saed my name pops up everywer thats y she noes me..hmmm..freaky..hahax...

The most interesting happening was the band public school performance todae...ultimately we sounded reasonable i guess..haha..quite a good turn-up..many pioneers came to support n hear us out..after that we had lunch..damn fun..hahax...Dean n Julaiha are okie i guess..yeahx...and yurong ish so freakingly farni lorhx..she so acted cute wif me..yuckz..thn we watched a video of the Japanese bands..woahx..they are lightyears ahead of us..the songs wer so mature..n soo contemporary..sum of them din need the scores to play..hahax..n their movements are so exaggerated..but filled wif emotion..so hypobole..hahax..thn i noticed that every gerl in taht sch had the same pasrticular hairdo..one rebond..all rebond or one tie ponytails..thn all tied as well..hahax..guess thay focused on appearance as well..had a good time making noise wif Julyha n Yurong in the lecture theathre...congrats to Dean for being surveyed by Michelle the trumpeteer for her friend..hmm..i smell love..but a one-sided one..hahax..n in conclusion..July likes Fauzy..hahax..kidding..i was spreading that around..hahax..n gort a hefty punching n wad other physical punishment frm julyha..hahahx..fun

I reaal hope we do well tmr..hahax..i came up wof this..WITH TIES THAT BIND AND HANDS WE HOLD..U WILL FIND AT THE PEAK A MEDAL OF GOLD!!..hahax..siao lahx me..hmm..gotta wake up super erly...

You seemed forlorn wen i told u i was not going to be present in sch..was tht real..was it authentic or juz another facade.i do not know if they were lies..but it seems u onli go for the hnadsum pple..good luck to ya..not everyone who ish nice are good looking...

caught a razor butterfly at - 10:30 PM |

__humour me

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Guess i lived up to my expectations for todae..hahahax..i practicalli slept thru the lessons...yawn..i was freaking tired man..hahax..and of course lazy to do the homewerk oso..i planning o do my h/w in the morning later..hahax..gonna slp soon..like a piggy..i realli enjoyed Malay todae..hahax..totalli humorous..Sharhana and Tanya were gong to the toilet while i was making my way to the water cooler near the malay klass..the teacher Mr hajis enquired why we had to go to the toilet during his klasses and Tanya answered.." Cikgu,kita suka kencing "..wich translates to " Teacher, we like to urine "..i was taken aback..n made a dash before Mr hajis realised taht Tanya ish damn weird..hahax..i dubbed her the Urine Queen to reign over the porcelain bowls...hahax..Mr Hajis complimented on my debate skills in malay and my oral skills..he saed i was good or ' bagus ' and i had to question him if he realli thought so..how weird for him to say that since i haf been failing all the malay tests so far..ahahah

GP and PW went well enuff...boohoo..my grpa int doing my idea as the grp project..we're doing Felicia's one..hahax..fund raising using the EZ-Link card..somore i envisioned my project too much..hahax..expected alort i guess..lol..Mdm tong saed my ideas were too complex and complicated n i am required to write it in layman terms..woahx..paiseh to the core man.. i was totalli pooped by the end of band..hahax..Shirong was so lame man..he declared his "love" for me juz now..saed " I love you " to me..lame..i asked himt o shut his gap..muahahax..tuba section rox..mad pple..yeahx..when i look at the sax section..sumhow i am reminded of the WWSS tuba section..just the 3 of us yet we were able to make so much noise..i had the most amount of pinches received from the Band Major..a.k.a Farahin..hahax..but we were alwae rite in terms of music..i mish them all..yeahx..But i gotta live wif it..PJCSB rox too..hahax..we will rock more wen we get a gold..yeahx...ambition ish our drive..we can do it pple..jia you..cnt wait for tmr's public performance to our sch..hahax..hope we dun foul up..a dae more to SYF

So i guess its too late..i will let go of those emotions..its no use..u haf sumone else now..u dun need me..animore..tts love i guess..or maybe a mere infatuation..time to let go...

caught a razor butterfly at - 10:48 PM |

__reBound

Monday, May 02, 2005

Hmmm..it's been a rather long time..well for those hu hafent got this piece of info..i didn't make it into the PJC debates team..boohoo..all i can say ish thanks to Esther Tan of JJC for realli comforting me all the way..hahax..it was realli comical when u saed that i am better thn aniwan of them..i know u realli tried ur best to console me..haha..if i stayed in JJC..i wld be in the debates team and i wld be a Pre-U seminar presenter...i gaf up all of that to come to PJC and it seems my dreams never did come true.. I finalli came to a consensus of not quitting band..i guess band is my life..its every tiny molecule of my fat and cellulite-filled body..I love music and all...and cant wait to emabark on a journey towards self-improvement and wad not..juz hope my friends wld be beside me all the way..jia you...hahax

Well..band ish rather taxing but i found it realli comforting that myself..Dean..Haziq and Maizura were able to haf a scrumptious meal at Fish & Co..it felt like the good old daes..hahax..i finalli ordered a new pair of specs..hope its nice..yeahx...hmmm...i juz had this weird though that nice guys alwaes finish last..its like..in my personal response..gerls alwaes tend to look out for shuai ges and wad not lahx..n guys too the same..but has everyone realli forgotten abt the true meaning of love and life..ish looks all that important now..During the exchange..i cudnt help but overhear Soon beng saying that certain MJC gerls seemed to be excited over some guys in our band...Have we reach a level that we tend to oogle at any person who appears hot and wad not..hmmm..it kinda reflects on the gendre..talk about women being the fairer sex and wad not..i am not be chauvinistic ut i found the MJC gerls abit despo..sad..forlorn..reminds me of Dean's accounter wif the St Hilda gerls during WWSS band exchange..wen will we learn that the heart bears the hopes of love and life..sheesh...

Few more days to band comp..hahax..freaky..but i guess we can strive all the way..undoubtedly the lazy disease slowly creeps into the crevices of my heart...maybe i will slack in sch n perk up in band..sounds radical enuff..muahahahax..time to snore in lectures agn!!....zzzzz

caught a razor butterfly at - 10:06 PM |

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