I dare you to catch razor butterflies

__the last time

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Its been a long time..a long time since i really cried.Life has become routine nowadaes..its just wake up-go to school-go home-sleep..yeah...i cant help being sad this days.Its like all those regrets are coming back to me.I bet u have heard this a thousand times but i kinda regret being in science when i noe personaly i cant live w/o Lit...I feel nonchalant about life...its just some piece of paper to me..being scribbled and torn by the external factors that give me "stearic hindrance" in chemistry terms.Someow i am starting to doubt the class i call "the best"..yeah..now since everyone is so amiable and wad not..we tend to see ouyr frineds as competition..the light ish now focussed on the smarty-pants and everyone wants to be in that light too..well..i miss all my old classmates or at least those i use to hag outwith..

Hmmm..i decided opn quitting it..Yurong asked me just now if i am going for band later..i told her no..i even saed that i am gonna quit soon..then she saed where was my commitment..I am not angry wif her or her remark but i tink i rather focus my commitment to another CCA..i totally adore theSocrates Club..i finaly belong there..i noe everyone in there and all of us are close..we bonded man.unlike the way i felt in band..i cant be bothered anymore..i hope u guys keep up those cold shoulder treatment..it will help me to adapt to my new CCA a whole lot better...ya i do miss sum people in band..al i can say is i hope u guys do the best ur potential can provide and to my other frenz..i enjoyed the time i had....

Maybe nobody wuld understand me..maybe i will never haf the commodity of a "girlfren" but i noe that making myself happy ish way important than anitin else..its weird i guess...being me.i cant help forgetting the moments i had in WWSS and wil forever return there in hope of recollecting mylost memories...Its all can do now..to live..like PJC says..

WHILE I LIVE, I LEARN

yeah..rite

until the next time..i will be gone for a long time..getused to the absence..u probably will..since i am nothing but a speck in this world i cling onto...

hiatus

caught a razor butterfly at - 12:10 PM |

__raindrops

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Its been a long time man..yup..hmmm..we didnt make it to the top eight..haha..oh well..i can say that my speech on Saturdae against CJC was the BEST i ever made.I was so proud of myself..HOORAY..but nonetheless i still wanna pulverise Mayeesha Zahin and mutiliate her fugging face..muahahaha..oh..o0pz...yup..hmmm...I mish those times i used to spent for debates...yup..haha...all those nite sessions..all those jokes and weird atics we patook in..Jonathan and his gay remarks abt everyone in the world especially me!!..haha..yeah..those were the times i realli enjoyed..Well i am still kinda upset abt the comment the Judge saed abt me..hmph..bt Mrs Menon brightened my whole day..she was like " Jaryl why did u waste ur time in Band..ur such a gd speaker.."...i blushed man!!..moi??..gd??...shucks..hahahaha

Hmmmm...i was looking at all the pictures n well-wishes frm my previous sch fwens..i mish everyone of them so badly..i actuali welled up wif tears..ya..thoe times esther and i would scribble weird stuff..pork chop too...Fish's card n letter too..and Jannah was alwaes gifing me hope...Daryl was alwaes by my side giving me all the weirdness i still cherish...and mr vp BUN..ya..the smartest n dreamer boy i met..these pple..made up my life..all of them..those i sat wif in klass and those i spent my last moments in Westwood with...i cherish those times..and love u guys loads...

Rez saed sumtim realli touching..if u aint happiy wif it..just leturself outta it...band..hmmm...i may not be a member for long..i tink i am gonna focus my strength in other areas...life ish okie i guess...pjc and all..yeah..sumtimes i wish i were back in wwss..i regret taking sci..i mish the arts and all..i mish those warm smiles in wwss...the cultures and all...here...i pjc..i seek redemption n salvage..but as long as i drwon myself in sorrow i will never attain it...its gonna be a new day..soon

it will start wif my decision on band - guess its time for the truth.....

caught a razor butterfly at - 12:37 PM |

__messed up

Friday, July 01, 2005

well..a week has passed..i guarantee i wld fail all my tests..every single shit.haiz..guess i din study or wad..oh well..i am starting promo studying tmr or sumtim..promos are in september..mad pple in pjc!!..haha..I am happie i made it into the JCDC debates team..woohoo..will be going agnst SAJC n CJC next Saturday...watch out pple..hippoe power..hahahah

Its weird i guess...girls will alwaes notice "THOSE" kinda guys..tink i will be invisible foreva..yup..nvm..as i fade away..i look at the past n watch the grains of sand disappear

I am so happy sum pple haf the feelings as me..like we all want a golden opportunity to turn back time..but wld it be at the expense of losing ur friends in college?...hmmm....

Malay oral was okie i guess..sumhow i am not to sure i can maintain the Distinction i got in oral..hmmm..i hope so..gotta work hard...i am not looking forward to PJCSB like my other peers..puh leese..i am just going for the music n nutin elz realli..i feel lost in band..ya..cant wait for Paragon..wif WWCB..they rock

I will walk towards the light..to see the memories i long...

caught a razor butterfly at - 7:48 PM |