__sch bLues
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Haiz...i feel very hopeless now...I realli cant stop tinking abt the o levels man..its like i nebr evn cared about it wen i wuz in sch thn all of a sudden..rumors abt the letter..speculations abt the release date..they are still lingering around me...I even dreamt yesterdae that i was ripping the results slip open onli to see the number 13 bearing at me and worst of all i dreamt i got c5 fer ENGLISH!!..i tell tts not impossible since i wrote a story fer my compo that cld fetch me extreme marks...either F9 or A1...i am sooo stewpid....
I haf not been to sch fer so long liao...few daes ba coz of my foot infection thn ytd my mummy ask me if i want to go sch this week anot..thn i say y lahx she ask untl like dat..thn she saed she hash been noticing tht i barely haf any mood to study and go sch..why waste this time..instead its better to stay at home and truly revise and wait fer ur results patiently...haiz..everyoneish wundering hu the top student ish..ya i oso wunder mahx...Tink it wld be either Yi Fong or Chang Peng but it wld be realli nice to see y name as one of the top students or better evn the top..But that dream ish far long gone..i tink i fouled up..tink i haf dun myself injustice..well i dunnoe..its juz 2-3 daes more...thn i shall noe my results...
Was talking to Pat ytd on the fone..thn she sae nowadaes i slack alort somre last time i beri guai de..haiz..dunnoe wads happening...i am not bad-mouthing pjc or anitin but sum pple sae pjc hash a lower reputation compared to jjc..but i dun wanna stay in jjc...i feel an urge to start anew in pjc..the band ish btr there..the combi's are btr there too..the building i hope its btr...well..i honestly dunnoe..all i noe ish alort of westwoodians will go to jjc de....i am still dreaming of going to njc lorhx..maybe if i am lucky i will get reults that are sufficient fer me to put my ass there and take my dream combi of bio ... chem ... and lit...somehow njc looks like the place to be intterms of studies and the pple there...sumtimes i regret leaving sajc...but i noe..it was neber meant to be fer me to stay in a sucky sch like dat..i am onli left wif praying that fridae wld be a dae of celebration fer me....onli...juz maybe....it mite not happen...
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