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Friday, August 12, 2005

Oh well..the week has flown by.It was great..mainly due to the absence of school and the welcomed presence of the sweet smell of the holidays. Amazingly and definitely against my ' madagascarian ' will i was able to conduct several useful study sessions...hooray...i finally studied for my chem test super well but wif gloom and doom i foresee another fail grade in my chemistry. So far subjects failed are two - maths and chem..deathtoll 2 and still rising...sheesh.

Tomorrow is my Toastmaters' Club competition.I still hafen got a suitable topic to talk about.Rezwana suggested something along the lines of the dark side and goth..ooooooo...i loike..sexy darkness amidst the dark onyx of winters night..yup..plain old absent-minded doodling in this blog..soon people will start hijacking my blog the same way Xiaxue had hers...in mere attempt to ridicule my sad life..most probably they would post ugly and cgi-ied nude pictures of me..haha..i assure u..parents advisory is required man!!

Hmmm..in pensieve moment i am in [ yoda's influence upon my english] My friends...the bestest i have in klass are experiencing totally opposite situations..one just got attached while the other patched with her bf but rather treats the whole relationship as if he werent there anymore..awww...i extend my grievances..buuuuuuuuuuut..i am the lonely one ultimately..i just wish one day a female..[ not she-male or male-she ] would step up to me n just hug me and whisper sweet nothings into my ears...I did like a girl or shouldi say several girls.but either they have other crushes..or already attached..To be honest i am still infatuated with someone but i swear not to utter her name..i leave it to a clandestine relationship

as i walk down the aisles in college i doubt the trenches i am in.I still cling onto the hope of seeing my fwens in this school.I still look into the blurry horizon staring into it to search for a person i noe.I am running away from my challengers...and challenges alike.I will emerge victorious coz i have u by my side.U may not know it but ur the most important person in my life [ besides the obvious family i haf ] .. i am not sure i am in the right position to say i love u coz i am still lurking in the shadows..i am still a lone ranger..i am still me

the times are changing...its time to adapt//

i am waiting for u...coaz i believe..

L o v e or sumtim along those lines..

aint for me...

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