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Friday, March 11, 2005

I accidentalli came across the tv show "chase" juz now.Hmmm..the stiry line could be a bit unrelistic.Its about this pair of individuals hu happen to stumble upon each other during a business or rather advertising business venture, but the catch ish the gerl can't realli remember the guy as the very nerd [ in the past lahx] whom she rejected 1o mighty years ago...and so the chase begins as the guy tries to win her heart once more and like every fallacy-filled fantasy, they would eventually fall in love n make babies..indirectly contributing to Singapore's population n raise the replacement rate to 2.1...ahahahx..abit of social studies there..man..i sae u gort it flaunt it..

okie..back to serius business..well..this kinda lovey-dovey dramas do get me thinking abt my future in the romance department.Hahax...i noe..its so unlikely fer a fat jester like me to ever ponder about the issue n love n relationship but i am human..evnthough abit on the heavy side..still human enuff to possess feelings n emotions like every other teen my age.I am not ashamed to sae this but i haf been rejected once..and tht was the final tot of anitin about love and all dt i ever had..heehee..i am neber gonna disclose any info abt the gerl..onli those very kloze to me noe..the rest..hmmm..let them juz guess..well..all i can sae ish tht it was painful..n i wasnt myself fer a while after the whole hubbub caused..tempers flared..tears streamed down cheeks and i can dare sae pple misunderstood each other..but i guess everytin settled sooner or later..hahax..i tink i was over-ambitious..Sumtimes i wunder whtr wen i further on my studies in another institution..[ hopefulli PJC!! ]..will i be involved in the turbulent experiences of love n relationship..I haf had pple tell me " So-and-so saed that u haf a great heart and u r so sweet..how can a gerl reject u and all dat"..and wad other stuff..normalli raining me wif compliments..but am i the real Jaryl hu fits the mould of wad my friends sae?...Sumtimes i tink i am not the real Jaryl i would want pple to see...if i perform in weird stuff like cheerleading..pple sae its gay..but y cant they see it that i was supportif..no other guy wanted to do it..so i dared to do it..i noe pple appreciate it and all..but there ish still doubt looming klose by...Wen i mix around wif guys n realli hang klose by to them its considered gay as usual..haiz..its lame..i haf heard pple saeing that guys in band are soft n wad not...r we?..how can we be so fickle-minded to think dat wae...hmm...

Okie enuff ranting..i haf been wondering whtr my msn nicks are abit too..hmm..how to sae..implicit..it confuses pple..but i am proud to sae i realli appreciate Mrs Tan fer asking abt it wenever i chat wif her..She seems to realli interested in it..she once saed she btr stepped up the quality of her nick coz i am cuming up wif more "cheem" stuff..hahax..i dunnoe.its juz natural fer me..i guarantee they are all original...here's my current nick n its intepretation:

well i hope u can read it..it goes "the mirror reflects my tears n lies__in this turbulent world of fallacies__x will you hold my hand?

It basically means that i am starting to realise that i have to learn to let pple see the actual side of me..my actual wackee personality and tht i am human enuff to feel sad n cry even.I am also realising the fact tht in modern context there are many instances where i will be left battered n hurt...n all i need n long for ish sumwan to hold my hand n lead me to a brighter dawn...n too whiper to my ears this werds.."Everything will be fine Jaryl..I am here..."...if onli it wer possible...time will tell...yeahx

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