Hoe Hoe Hoe
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
So we're two weeks closer to fake smiles 'round the dinner tables & merrily unwrapping time bombs glistening under cherry- red exteriors. How foolish we have matured to be and become.
If you know me well enough, you'd notice i don't really smile during the season of X'mas. Maybe it has to do with the fact that i'm an unholy turd whom doesn't seem to possess the littlest desire to even redeem my soul in church or maybe it's my father. Yes. Yes i'll put the blame on my father. It's always easier to blame your parents for the way you turn out. Always.
My emokid-self has resurfaced once again, and this time i think it might stay.
Say hello to Emokid
Last Friday was the last day of W!ld Rice CIP. Yes i felt sad for a moment, then i realised i was being the biggest hypocrite that day and sulked even more. Oh well. Everyone is hypocritical at one point of their lives. So this Friday i will be saying goodbye to someone i really really adore so much. It's so weird, how we seem so similar till people claim we even look like siblings. I love you Rez and please come back soon. And no, nobody will take over the places of you, Yina & Shar. Uniqueness shall be honoured, not replaced. Have fun.
Recently, i've been thinking. Have i held you back? No the "you" here aint Rez. Just that after i looked through some pictures and blog entries, i realised how demoralising it is to hang around someone like me. Crap, emokid Jaryl is feeling emo ( signature emotion of the year 2006 )
Oh, & why do people have so much faith in me or about stuff associating with me when i have the barest of faith in myself. Thanks JingLing for believing that out there, a piece of the puzzle exists waiting to complete me. But truth is, no matter what people say or think, i've lost that feeling a long time ago. I would'nt know my life partner even if she slaps me on the face and begs for copulation. This is all so stupid.
Title : Heart-beaten
please click on the picture for a better view and zoom in
I drew and coloured the heart myself.
So far i've had my fair share of bad & good comments.
How can it feel so nice?
Why does it feel so right?
I think ive been somewhere special
I want to go back there
Sleep
I think i will
Go back to sleep
Oh it's so cold and shivery outside my cocoon
Now i'm on my way
Sleep
Oh sleep
Sleep
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