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My Zest Got Lost In My Vest

Saturday, March 03, 2007

Jolted out of my bed at 215am and watched ellen, tyra, scrubs and the simple life till 'bout 6.
Slept till 12pm.

Surprisingly, the atmosphere at PJC on friday was so much different from last year. In 2006 i witnessed the 2005 batch of pioneers bawling their eyes out in every direction, amidst the occasional scream and cheer.
It's really cool to actually see your friends succeed through the As. Definitely my inspiration for my own task ahead. I'm especially proud of Usha. You of all people deserve to do extremely well. Love you big sis!!
Not forgetting resident genius, Geralyn whom bagged straight As! I shall leech off her brain juices.
Bestie did tremendously well over at JJC.
And my friends from the EconsHistLit combi all did so fantastically well.

Next year, my name's gonna be flashed on the screen. I'll walk across the stage in glory and cry in the arms of my friends. I want it so bad. Not only for myself, but for my mom.

" I'll come up in life through you, boy "

Ran and walked several km today. I've not seen Dean since my birthday and Haziq since god knows when. But i don't feel obliged to meet. Don't get me wrong, my studies are flailing and i'll only feel comfortable meeting up with friends during the holidays.

Forgive me.

Jings reiterated what i said weeks ago.

"You don't need a lady to validate you..."

But lately i feel the need to be validated. To validate my masculinity, my testosterone levels, my existence. Sometimes i feel i don't even act like a guy.
Which guy aspires to read Women studies and Literature ?
I love Sylvia Plath. She's my inspiration for such aspirations.
We both have screwed up paternal backgrounds. We both feel weirdly connected to nature.
My poetic forms and creations often take after her.
I'm proud being me. I wish the people around me appreciate that.

I'm losing my zest. Lit and GP common tests next week.

Ace it boy, ace it.

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