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Cuts & Scrapes For Boyhood

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Where do we find ourselves? Where do we run to, in search of the true meaning of selfhood ?

Watched Saved!, Beautiful Thing and Latter Days. 3 Movies only a few might appreciate but please no judgment. Really beautiful pieces, each with its own theories of love and/or religion. Sometimes we take the parameters set by our faith a little too far. We live by the books, forgetting that we are all made in His image, yet to be non cookie-cutter seems like a detrimental flaw to mankind. Why do we ostracize ? Why do we judge so often ?

I'm no way different yet in my many hours of people-watching, i do ponder about it. I feel like a drudge trying to outshine the stars and the sun, trying to hard to be in the spotlight.

Don't need golden fleece
Just give me some peace
Gonna learn to see what's in front of me
I want to give
I want to give not take
Everything seems so fake
Maybe it's just too loud
Maybe I am just too proud
Trying to get far, far from the madding crowd
Can't seem to catch a break
Everything seems so fake
Everything seems so fake

I'm peculiarly treating myself badly. Bouts of unnecessary depression. Plastic smiles and over-rehearsed laughter. I need to find myself badly. Hold my hands and lead the way, rhyme it with a better day. I want to smell the rain smudged grass and run through playgrounds. Being a kid would be an unobtainable solution. I'll give myself to you, I'll give myself to you.

// edit * Please take the quiz to determine if my Daemon is indeed a match ( Got it off Kari's)

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