___m0menT's Reprieve
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Hmmm..i stiLl cant find a go0d buy fEr a stewpid hp...aniwae i went back to Westwood ytd..it wuz totaLLi FUN!!!..Actualli Haziq..Dean and myseLf were kinda late i guess..so we took a taxi to skooL..in the end rush here and there..thn pLay..hahahax..it wuz okie..i mean the performance had its flaws lahx..and being human i made several mistakes too...but hu will noe one...after the 1st performance..met so many familiar faces...graduands frm my year..i teLL u it wuz realli an eye-opener..everyone changed one way or another...They all seemed happie in JC..maybe i am a wet bLanket..maybe i am not meant to be in a JC..maybe i am juz a stewpid jerk hu dusnt reaLise how fortunate i am...but it cant be..evryone sae i am lucky to be in SAJC..but i beg to differ..i am rarely happie there..i find myself skipping sko0l ever so often..sumtim wich is not of my character..have i gone thru a period of rebellion..or am i experiencing sum disturbances in my life..its all cloudy..Benjamin and gang seem so enthusiastic abt JJC..they are truli hafing a time of their life..wish i were there to experience it too..it wld neber hurt....
WeLL...after everything..tchers like Ms Tan and Mrs Vergis were commenting on how different i look...they saed i looked good and very matured...do i?...its onLi been a couple of months..haf i changed tt drastically?....Maybe i am not the same Jaryl u noe....maybe....Haiz..so the dae went on and Haziq told me tt he confronted Yanti and found out tt Raimi and her stead liao..well i am definitely not jealous or anitin but i feel a mixture of anger and sadness that Raimi did not even inform any of the 5 of us..not even me..i noe that i haf not been a good godbro or even a fren...i noe we haf benn drifting apart..but it dusnt hurt to tell Haziq..Dean..Naz or Sheril rite....wad difference duz it makes?....Somore Esther came back to skool too..she had the cheek to sae 'Hi' to Dean but totalli ignored me...so much fer being frenz in the past..history repeats itself...i am a fool...a misunderstood fool..nice guys alwaes finiz last..or maybe i am too slow to win the race of life...well i am fat u noe..so i am naturalli a person not inclined towards the sporting arena...
I reaLLi feLt hapi wen i spent my time in Westwood wif my true companions and oso wif my cuzzins..onli wif them do i feel liberated..
I am so sick of lying..i tink the truth would be known to all in a few moments in my life..pple will find out that i am such a coward and liar..i am not the same animore...maybe its time to withdraw..............
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