___dripping wet
Friday, September 23, 2005
Each time i reflect on my choices i am dowsed with regret and nothing about regret. I still wished i had given SAJC a chance, i still wished i had studied really hard for the O's to obtain a better grade. But nonetheless i chose PJC for a reason and i think the reasons are slowly being diluted to nothing but plaintive silence. I wished my life was so much better. yeah i have the friends and would guarantee that they are the ones holding me strong but still .. I wished that my wishes had come true. The exams are creeping closer yet i feel that all my " studying " was just a mirage. I'm not be sadistic or anything but in a way i'm happy that my class spirit is breaking up.Finally their true colours are shown. Finally we noe that we should unite and prove that tyrant wrong. Haiz what i would give to be back in the past, just me in my dream world sitting next to Limin and Xiyee..i miss them so much, we crapped so much till the teachers wanted to separate us. Damn were those just memories. I hoped they're doing fine.
I'm sorrie Rez...sorrie that i've been a dunderhead. I'm sorrie that all i can do this few days is to sulk and insult you. I'm sorrie that i cant be a good friend. No matter how much i try to change myself. i still think that i am dumb...stewpid and ugly..yeah i guess ur right, I do have a low self-esteem. I dunnoe..maybe its all those moments when i felt that i never did belong. I wish that we would be friends foreva. and if u dont see me by ur side next year..remember me in your heart.
Maybe all my dreams of being a zoologist might be wasted. Maybe all those dreams of inspiring kids about literature would fall short. Maybe all those dreams of being successful and making my parents and friends proud would be illusions in my head. Maybe just Maybe, i don't think i would allow that to happen. I'll fight all the way..till my energy drains out. i'll fight alrite...as long ur there by my side.
of all the tears i cried...
i think the end of glee has come...
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