__all downhill from now
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
i feel like a failure...nothing but diappointed in all my past and present endeavours. Sometimes i ponder why in the world did i ever try top outdo myself. I was rejected by the student council to join the OGL team and now i just found out that the Debaters are pretty much breaking up so we might not participate in the upcoming Red Cross Debates this week. while they were arguing i just sat at the staircase staring into the sky....wishing...wishing....
Its all breaking up...all my dreams...all my hopes..all those things i was looking forward to...its all over i guess..i'm never going to feel whole again..
i just tot tht maybe i would give PJC another chance...guess not..it was a mirage that i refused to believe away..its my fault..
the moon has peeked out to chuckle and laugh
as i grab onto a shard of glass
I cringe in pain and hold on tight
as i bring it forth and slash my right
the crimson tide comes dripping in a wave
i watch it splotch
by my bed
i can't be whole
i cant be the same
its ll because
i refuse to say your name....
*******
thats ur name
now guess the game...
its not the same again....never was..never will
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