__ lessons learnt
Saturday, January 21, 2006
.. I learnt lotsa stuff about myself this week.. here's a sneak peek
Lesson 1 : I'll never let go of the past
it just sucks i guess.. its hard.. i personally feel that i've not even attempted to be nice to my ex-classmates. C'mon lah Jaryl, stop being an ass.. shudders! I tink i'm actually afraid. I don't really miss them like before, i dont really feel like disturbing them with my presence anymore. I' such a hypocrite. Honestly... I still feel jealous tht i'm not in J2.. well maybe not jealous.. more of a sharp pain in my heart.. its qte difficult to get use to it.. but i'm trying.
Lesson 2 : I'm actually really small
well not physically but in a sense of my talents i guess.. i was at the debates n drama auditions and i realised tht i'm not really that good compared to the fresh J1's.. sometimes i feel so weird ya noe.. I love drama coz of all the pple and all dat. But since we're gonna get a new coach, i foresee tht i wont even get a role.. seriously.. i can't act.. haiz.. goodness.. talk about debates too.. suddenly i just feel so worthless.. i realli cant comprehend why i feel dat way.. god
Lesson 3 : I'll end up in hell
I havent even gone to church for so long.. damn.. i'm going to die and descend into the flames.. well Dean said we might die anytime so its better to repent.. crap
Lesson 4 : I'll never forget the past
dammit.. everytime i look at Jasmine i see a reflection of the gerl who literally wringed my heart back in secondary school.. honestly, who evers forgets and forgive?.. we cant really let go of the past until we accept it.
seems very touch and go eh?.. oh well.. hu cares.. I really love my class now.. 06A01.. tho u guys would pursue different areas of tertiary eductaion once u guys get ur results, i will always remember those times.. and oh yeah.. i made it to the O2 commitee trials but pulled out in the end..
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