My Fucked Up Paternal Influence
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
It's at times like this i have absolutely no effort in paying any respect to you. You're indescribably childish yet you're well over 50 years.
It might seem trivial, but i only ask to watch ONE bloody television programme out of the million you gawk at each mundane day of your short-lived life. Why bother fathering a child when you certainly act like one?
I'm seriously hoping for the day you return to your creator and meet the haven of decomposed pastures, where the creatures of the soil would appreciate you a whole lot better then your own family.
I sincerely think the best thing you did in your life was to rendezvous in the masterbedroom suited to your taste & preferences, copulating with the person i love with all my heart. I pity my mother for still loving you. Obviously i don't, i lost my love for you the day i shouted in your despicable face that i refuse to be known as your son.
The thoughts of leaving my mum and siblings alone with you while i hope to pursue an overseas degree just drives me crazy.
Yes we all have father-son/daughter problems. I'm just one of the few brave enough to mention it. Fucking paternal genes. I feel so impure, so insecure ; that i might turn out just like my father.
It's in my blood anyway, it's in my blood.
* Hema, Usha, ZQ, Nessa, LDY, Dean, Noreen thanks for all the well wishes. Will get back to you guys in a short while.
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