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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Jaey,
Tensions build and it may take an emotional outburst to process your feelings. The problem is that you tend to be uncomfortable outside the logical realms. Ride the waves of your own emotions, even if you aren't happy about where they are taking you. Don't blame anyone else for your anxiety. The source of your uneasiness comes from within you and not from the outside.

when Tarot.com sends u such accurate shit in your email, you just know that your in for a rollercoaster ride. hurrah!

Well, today's Lit Enrichment Day was rather disappointing i think. Though Alfian Saat rocked with his readings and takes on Singaporean Identity, i thought the talk on the " Dramatisation of King Lear " was a big let down.
ohh, i have recieved three 0's for my tardiness in Lit. hooray for me being a stupid lazy ass. No im not asking for your sympathy or anything. Just stating that i have been ~~rather~~ VERY moronic.

ZERO for Pride and Prejudice quiz
ZERO for pride and prejudice contextual essay
ZERO for Lady Lazarus essay.

crap.

drama meeting was okie i guess. I have a VERY VERY low self-esteem so i tend to think that im very much inadequate for the vice-president role. There must be something that i can do right this week. please make me do something right this week.

I called someone today in favour of adik noreen.
and he called me back

Him: Hi did anyone call my handphone
Me: Hello , what?
Him: Did anyone call me hp?
Me: who is this?
Him: Denver
Me: CHEY! u dont know who i am eh. stupid ikan billis!
Him: EH u bitch. go drink ice lemon teeeeeeee!

looks like someone was paranoid! lol

i sent a damn random message to Lydia just before i stepped into the Lit lecture :

" I'm walking in the trenches of hypocrisy "

she replied me in a very panicky state just now. oh well. i seem to cause such unnecessary bother.

MAIZURA IS GONNA PASS HER CHEM!
yesssss. she isssss

my darling friend is trying hard and im so happy to see her blossoming in her chem. u go baybeh.
xinyi was trying to teach me debit and credits. hehe
u guys dunnoe how much each day we spend means to me.
and maiz is so cheeky! hint hint to ur lover boy!

an excerpt from jing's blog : -
goodbye all. leaving for beijing tomorrow. oh and jaryl, please never be a jerk! you're still the epitome of niceness among the guys i've met so far. yeahppp

beams =)

i know today's entry is rather mundane. but who cares. im kinda sick of the state im in now. like my syf character, i seem to be a pushover. I dont need anyone's sympathy, i dont need anything actually.

all i need is a nice late night chat with maiz and xinyi
all i need is a e-kiss from lydia
all i need to know is that my bestie Jo is behind me all the way and that we miss each other alort
all i need to know is that Jing will look out for me and i'll do the same
all i need to know is that you wont be offended [ although i know u would ]

oh, i'm planning to create an anthology of poems by the end of this year.
here's the first poem in the collection done by me. rate it okie:

Find

the moon dissolves into
thy milky misconceptions
don't you see the shadows engulf
i'm all alone now; solitary
yet thy face remains nameless
hold on; hold tight; fright
cherryblossoms wither down the
streak across thy back
look; listen; cry
creep through and forage
for the truth to all the fallacies
i'll weep
in deep
of the known and the knowings of you
and we'll hold hands in comtempt
for it's not too long
for i have loved
and thee -
not

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